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That's a bit harsh.
Haven't you ever had a piece of cake you really didn't want but you took to be polite to your favourite aunty (or whoever) who baked it for you? I mean the cake was nice an' all, you like cake generally and that cake was good too, but you didn't really want it and you feel a bit icky having eaten cake you didn't want. Aunty didn't tie you down and force feed you the cake - you took it consensually and ate it entirely voluntarily because you didn't really know how to say no without hurting aunty's feelings.
It's the same, but with sex.
It's odd - that feeling has never happened to me in a FB, FWB, one-nighter experience because I have always been aware when I am being used or not - and made a pre-sex consious agreement with myself that I was OK with that. It is in relationships I've had that problem, like dolfette described.
To the OP: I don't know how you get rid of that feeling. I think you may be having sex for the wrong reasons though. Maybe something else is missing in your life and you are trying to fill the void. After the intimacy of sex the void is not filled but is all the more noticable. I don't necessarily think that the lack you are trying to make up for is sexual - or that you need to find a boyfriend. Maybe you do - or maybe you just need a level of intimacy in your life that you aren't getting. Have you moved away from good friends? Is everything OK with your family relationships? I don't expect you to answer those questions here, it is none of our business unless you want it to be - but it might help to ask yourself those questions.
What I'm trying to say is that the void is there before the sex - it is just more obvious after. If you friend has been honest with you about his expectations then he hasn't really done anything wrong. And neither have you. Don't feel guilty. There's no need to swear off 'NSA' sex either, not necessarily. Try to work out what you were feeling before you had sex so the next time a similar situation comes up you will know how to spot those signs and behave differently.
And never be afraid to turn down sex (or cake) for fear of offending someone. It's your body - you have the final say on what goes into it.
That was very helpful, thank you.