So... I do have the fantasy of watching my husband with another woman. My motivation is that I would want to see and hear another woman be completely in awe of my husband's big penis. I want to hear her moans and screams of pleasure, especially at the very moment when he puts his penis inside her for the first time. I want her to be totally surprised at how much his penis fills her up. I want her to be amazed and turned on by how huge my husband's penis is. I guess it is a sense of pride and showing off my husband. I don't want to participate in a threesome; I just want to watch and listen (either in the room or unknown to her by watching a live video). I don't think I 100% fit the definition of cuckquean, because humiliation is not a turn-on for me. But at the same time, I don't think this is just voyeur, because there's something very specific in the reaction I'm looking for. This whole fantasy actually is specific to two women my husband and I know. I know that they each have a secret crush on him and have figured out that he has a large penis. So, for me, there's also a sense of, 'Oh, so you want my husband? Well, let me let you have a taste of how great he is. Because ultimately I know he doesn't want you; He's coming back to me.' There's also the aspect that these women have not had kids, so I have in my mind that not only would they be in awe of the size of his penis, but their bodies might not even be able to handle it. I like that this would make their "Oh my god!" responses likely more intensified. Right now, all of this is just a fantasy and is not something I'm actually looking to fulfill in real life (I believe that as soon as my husband has sex with another woman, our marriage will never be the same again). But the fantasy is such a turn-on for me, that us talking about the details of the fantasy during sex (especially talking about the other woman's reactions) makes me come so hard. There's a tiny part of me that does want to act this fantasy out, but I'm more focused on figuring out why I'm recently having this fantasy in the first place.