I tried looking for a thread on this topic, but couldn't really find it. How was your first real kiss with someone of the same sex? Yes, sometimes we experiment, play around and stuff, but what do you consider to be your first real (loving, surprising, pleasurable, etc.) kiss? Mine was with my "friend". We both came out to each other over a lunch (him as gay, me as bisexual) and have been great friends ever since. Anyways, one night, in my hotel room on a visit, we were engaged in a discussion for a couple of hours. He said something that irritated me and i jokingly/angrily told him to get out. He decided to leave, gave me a hug, but stopped at the door. Before he left, he asked me "have you ever thought about us kissing?" Of course i did. I'd been secretly in love with him for months. I decided to be honest and say yes, but didn't elaborate or say anything further. I was sitting on the bed while he was still at the door and neither of us moved. There was this awkward (but totally adorable) standoff between us as to whether we should do it or not. He asked me if we should and i just said "do what you want to do" and played coy even though this was what i wanted for so long. I walked over to the door and said again "do what you want to do" and he came back inside and closed the door. I was like "Oh, shit, what do i do now?" in my head. There was this second-long awkward moment where we didn't know where to put our hands, but then, it happened. Not to sound sappy, but it was magic. I felt his lips, his tongue, and was scared and excited at the same time. There was this short moment where our teeth hit each other, but it didn't stop anything. Also, (accidentally, i promise!) i brushed against his dick with my leg and felt that he was enjoying himself too. I opened my eyes for a second while we were kissing to gauge how he might've been feeling. His eyes were closed and he was completely in the moment. We still were kissing when somehow we ended up near the bed where i was sitting when we had our standoff. But then it ended. He broke away, said a quick goodbye and left. He later told me that things got too "intense" for him. He also admitted that he jacked off afterwards because of how hot he got. We're not able to be together right now for reasons i won't go into (nothing serious, but it just gives too much of my identity away) but honestly? i can't see my future without him.