I've been playing with toys for about a year now and I really want to try a real cock since I've heard its the best. I'm straight so its hard to me to think about male on male contact. However, I recently had a 3some with a bimale where he stroked my cock at one point & was caressing my ass while I fucked his girlfriend, which I was totally okay with. My question is, how do you guys rationalize receiving anal sex for the first time? Every time I get done jerking off to watching guy on guy porn, I feel guilty about it. What I'm fearing is that if I bottom for a guy, I'll feel less than a man afterwards, like it will really hurt my self esteem. I'm trying to get my mind to believe that being able receive anal & enjoy myself as a strength, as a positive thing, like I'm MORE of a man because I'm able to enhance my sex life with an open mind. What did you guys go through your first time bottoming & how did you feel afterwards?