Today I had my first "bi" or "gay" sexual encounter....we both traded j/o and oral. The whole time in my head I couldn't stop thinking about how disgusting it was, and afterwards....I went crazy. I can't stand it and I look at myself as just disgusting. Even the thought of the whole encounter repulses me now. This is serious, and I was wondering....I love women, I love everything about them, but at the same time I haven't been laid in quite a few months...was this just a quick sexual encounter to get myself off? Or even after all the remorse and shit that I think about....could it be that possibly I am BI?