Hey guys!
So where I'm from, being gay isn't accepted at all. So I'm in closet. I used to use Grindr but I never really trusted anyone to do anal sex with there. (Probably because I'm a bit paranoid about STD and especially HIV because my cousin is HIV+)
Long story short, I met a guy from Spain online and we had been communicating for over 2 years. He visited my country and he was the first (and the only one for now) man that has ever fucked me.
I enjoyed having him inside of me emotionally (I'm 100% bottom, knowing that I satisfy my top really turns me on). However, having him inside of me felt a little bit awkward. Fortunately, it didn't hurt but I got that wanting-to-pee and defecate (sorry for the language) sensation and I had to ask him to stop because I had to go to the bathroom.
He was okay with me stopping him halfway and continued once I was sure I wasn't going to defecate. Anyway, I saw on amateur porn videos how guys enjoy being fucked and I want that so badly but I couldn't get pass those feelings. I was so turned on one time that I tried to finger myself and tried to find my prostrate, but once I played with it, those sensations came back and I just got uncomfortable and turned off. Was that normal?
And what can I do to enjoy it?
I'm not top, that's one thing for sure. I have never nor have I wanted to fuck someone.
If you've read this far, thank you so much and I'm looking forward to see your replies.
Thanks! Have a good day!
So where I'm from, being gay isn't accepted at all. So I'm in closet. I used to use Grindr but I never really trusted anyone to do anal sex with there. (Probably because I'm a bit paranoid about STD and especially HIV because my cousin is HIV+)
Long story short, I met a guy from Spain online and we had been communicating for over 2 years. He visited my country and he was the first (and the only one for now) man that has ever fucked me.
I enjoyed having him inside of me emotionally (I'm 100% bottom, knowing that I satisfy my top really turns me on). However, having him inside of me felt a little bit awkward. Fortunately, it didn't hurt but I got that wanting-to-pee and defecate (sorry for the language) sensation and I had to ask him to stop because I had to go to the bathroom.
He was okay with me stopping him halfway and continued once I was sure I wasn't going to defecate. Anyway, I saw on amateur porn videos how guys enjoy being fucked and I want that so badly but I couldn't get pass those feelings. I was so turned on one time that I tried to finger myself and tried to find my prostrate, but once I played with it, those sensations came back and I just got uncomfortable and turned off. Was that normal?
And what can I do to enjoy it?
I'm not top, that's one thing for sure. I have never nor have I wanted to fuck someone.
If you've read this far, thank you so much and I'm looking forward to see your replies.
Thanks! Have a good day!