OK this needs some explaining so hold on in there. I've been friends with a 25 year old (i'm 35) for 4 years now via work, she's cute, attractive and very sexual. We've always been very good friends and have been out many times, a while back she started to open up about her sex life for some bizarre reason and it's all come to a head this past week and I'm a little taken aback by where this had led me. So through various conversations in the past she knows that i've been paid to webcam for girls, guys , couples and i've been paid to have sex with another mans wife. In fact she got me to set up her webcam so she could try this. All went well and she's just got a boob job with the far more amount of money made than i ever have... Anyway last week was her first week back after the op so we went out drinking for her "new boobs" and we shared a taxi back to hers. Nothing new here i always make sure she gets home, in for a coffee and she went to get changed as per usual... She came in topless to show me her new boobs and things got rather strange... Got to say they look AMAZING! After some honest conversation about them she got me to touch them and while doing do i started to get hard and her nipples went solid so feeling awkward i stopped and she got her top on, coffee passed in silence i and i got the last boat home. Got in logged onto Skype and i saw she was online, and didn't say anything as we aren't great Skype chatters outside work and thought nothing of it. A while later she popped up and asked me about her boobjob and i told her what i thought of them and just as things were petering out she dropped this bomb "`i've fantastised about you raping me" WTF ???? I went into self preservation mode and asked what i'd done as i would never do anything like this, it's just not in my nature etc etc and she just said to calm down. She's had it a few times, she knows it's not something i would ever do but after the show and feel earlier when i left she felt horny and wished i'd taken her. Then PING logged off.... So i sat there for a good hour shitting myself wondering if this was me or her but i found myself turned on by the idea of not raping her but having rough dominant sex with her and for the 1st time in all the time i've known her i wanked off thinking about taking her from behind over her desk while holding her down and has a fantastic orgasm, in fact i carried on and repeated for the first time in a very long time. Now i feel like shit and come Tuesday ( Monday is a holiday in the UK ) , what the hell happens when i see her..