Is anyone just coming to terms with being gay? Or have any of you had similar feelings?
I've been at peace with myself for some time now, but yes, I was definitely in turmoil and depressed. Almost all of us feel that way. We all get laden with the nasty messages from people about what gay people are and what their lives are like - but those messages come from ignorance. Being gay can be just as wonderful and just as frustrating as being straight or bi or whatever.
Ive known I'm gay for a while now and recently have had sexual interactions and am feeling very depressed.
This is totally normal. Actually having sex is much, much more intense than the idea of being gay. People's first sexual experiences, regardless of their orientation, usually leave them in emotional turmoil. Add on feeling down about being gay and that just makes things worse. What you're feeling is something that many, many, many gay people can relate too.
Being Indian + Muslim, being Gay is not really an option.
Being queer in some religious and cultural communities can be especially hard. I won't sugar coat that for you. Don't think it's impossible, though. There's a group in Canada called Salaam that is run by and for LGBTQ muslims. I know people who've been involved with it, and who are very happy people. You can find it here:
Contact Salaam: Queer Muslim Community
Regardless of where you live, they might be able to point you in the right direction for help if you need it.
Some of my gay friends tell me I don't need to tell anyone, so its fine- but it's still getting me down.
This is true. If it's too much for you, or if you're worried about your safety, there's no requirement that you come out of the closet. It will get you down, but you have to weigh what's more important to you in this case.
I feel like I'm living a lie.
This is the biggest trade-off of being a good, honest person living in the closet. I'm very sorry for you.
Help please
I looked up "gay and lesbian muslims" on google and found this:
Gay and lesbian Arabs There are lots of links on that page. Like I said, I don't know where you live so I don't know if it's the right fit for you. Doesn't hurt to check it out, though. I'm gay, Canadian and Christian and I found it really interesting
There are lots of other resources online that are not specific to a religion, too. And there are lots of people on this website who, I'm sure, understand how you feel and have been through the struggle of coming to grips with being queer.
Congratulations on being honest with yourself. You said you have friends who tell you you don't need to come out. That means you have friends who know you're gay. Congratulations on that, too. Both of those things, being out to yourself and to others, are enormous steps and proof of how courageous you are.