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Hi everyone. I’m writing this out because 24 and gay with nobody that understands gay lifestyle to talk to. I’m so tired and feel so alone at is point in my life. I’ve been trying to workout and make myself feel better. It’s been working but today I just feel defeated. Like everything I’m doing is for nothing and I’m going to die alone or end up marrying somebody that I don’t love.
I have this guy that I really care about. I believe he is bisexual, probably sexually attracted to girls and romantically attracted to guys. I told him about my feelings and he said he was straight blah blah. But our friendship and odd closeness never changed until a year later. Lately he has been ghosting me when we text. But in person our conversations have been more deep. I believe he has feelings and attractions to me but it scares him. That’s just my theory.
so I’ve been just trying to be a good friend and focus on me. Even having random hookups to get my mind off of him. But today we were sitting with a mutual friend and he started talking about this girls ass and how good it looked in front of me. It really broke my heart. 1 cause he knows how much I care about him, so I kind of feel disrespected. Two just because I feel like it’s pointless, why bother liking guys if they are never going to like me back, regardless if they are bi or not. It just sucks how this world has made it so difficult for LGBTQ people to find love. I want to let go of this crush but I felt a connection with him. I’m just tired of trying to make him feel comfortable. I want somebody to chase me for a change.
so please I’m hoping somebody can give me support and some kind words of wisdom please.
I have this guy that I really care about. I believe he is bisexual, probably sexually attracted to girls and romantically attracted to guys. I told him about my feelings and he said he was straight blah blah. But our friendship and odd closeness never changed until a year later. Lately he has been ghosting me when we text. But in person our conversations have been more deep. I believe he has feelings and attractions to me but it scares him. That’s just my theory.
so I’ve been just trying to be a good friend and focus on me. Even having random hookups to get my mind off of him. But today we were sitting with a mutual friend and he started talking about this girls ass and how good it looked in front of me. It really broke my heart. 1 cause he knows how much I care about him, so I kind of feel disrespected. Two just because I feel like it’s pointless, why bother liking guys if they are never going to like me back, regardless if they are bi or not. It just sucks how this world has made it so difficult for LGBTQ people to find love. I want to let go of this crush but I felt a connection with him. I’m just tired of trying to make him feel comfortable. I want somebody to chase me for a change.
so please I’m hoping somebody can give me support and some kind words of wisdom please.