well it seems like every time i post on here is when my crushes always go to shit. recently started back at my old job from about 3 years ago. i fucking hate it but work is rare here. i just can't seem to get a leg up in the industry i went to school for. i've recently developed an attraction towards a boy i work with. he's only 17 which makes me feel like a fucking pervert (i'm 21), but through experience i've learned first hand you can't help who you like. just like with my past crushes i believe him to have quite a few gay qualities which i think has only helped my attraction towards him develop more. he's very cute and charming and at various times he's expressed an interest towards me, especially on my first day back. i'm surprised he hasn't mentioned any girlfriends actually. tonight he left me responsible for his huge bag of jelly beans and i broke the bag while throwing them as somersaults in the air. fucking failure, right? i might have to stop and buy him another bag and drop it off at work tomorrow. it'll stop me from feeling like a shitbag. needless to say i'm going to dwindle on this, yet again, failed crush i've developed. i wouldn't feel right even making a move on him because of his age, so if anything were to happen he would have to initiate it... even then i'd hesitate. god can only help me now. i swear i'll be single for the rest of my life. i don't know where i went wrong in my life. i've been told by many people i'm attractive. i just get these compliments from either women, or someone that i have no general interest in and i always end up back at square one. please don't focus on the fact he's a minor - i get that. i think it's part of the reason why i'm a little down on the situation. comments/advice would be nice about now.