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Im a 25 yo guy living in one of the muslim country in asia(not ready to tell where cause im afraid im going to be attack). I was born and raise here, im not a muslim, instead a catholic but still have a very strict religious family. I have 2 siblings, me and my older sister which i respect so much.
Ive known that im gay since i was a child, i kept it as a secret but i have a feeling that my whole family already know by the act of them always indirectly lecture me how to be a true men and whats not supposed to do.
Last year, i came out accidentally during a fight with my sister. By her reaction i think shes on the fence, she seems ok with it but the fact that she told me to keep it to myself and not to tell anyone especially our parents is a sign that i cant be myself. And also she told me to wait until our parents died then i can do whatever i want. Which seems unfair compared to what she did during the time.
After i came out to her, i slowly came out to my friends, starting with the closest and i trust the most. And thankfully everything went good, i have lost some but i dont really want to think about it. Then i started dating, but its hard here because most of the gay guy here only want to have sex( which im not really looking forward to) due to discretion and also no future in any gay relationship.
So i started thinking to move to other country that accept the lgbt community, but im afraid to leave my parents alone (cause im a family kind of guy and its always part of our culture to live close with each other) and also cause i want to move to australia which are the closest to my country that accept lgbt but recently my country is kind of being banned to enter australia which makes it harder for me to move there. Im considering to move to america but its too far and im not from a rich family, so my budget to move there is very limited.
Im very excited to be free, but theres alot of going on that stop me from doing it. Do u guys have any suggestions or any good words so i can deal with this problem right now?
Thank u so much and i hope i will get a good responds
Ive known that im gay since i was a child, i kept it as a secret but i have a feeling that my whole family already know by the act of them always indirectly lecture me how to be a true men and whats not supposed to do.
Last year, i came out accidentally during a fight with my sister. By her reaction i think shes on the fence, she seems ok with it but the fact that she told me to keep it to myself and not to tell anyone especially our parents is a sign that i cant be myself. And also she told me to wait until our parents died then i can do whatever i want. Which seems unfair compared to what she did during the time.
After i came out to her, i slowly came out to my friends, starting with the closest and i trust the most. And thankfully everything went good, i have lost some but i dont really want to think about it. Then i started dating, but its hard here because most of the gay guy here only want to have sex( which im not really looking forward to) due to discretion and also no future in any gay relationship.
So i started thinking to move to other country that accept the lgbt community, but im afraid to leave my parents alone (cause im a family kind of guy and its always part of our culture to live close with each other) and also cause i want to move to australia which are the closest to my country that accept lgbt but recently my country is kind of being banned to enter australia which makes it harder for me to move there. Im considering to move to america but its too far and im not from a rich family, so my budget to move there is very limited.
Im very excited to be free, but theres alot of going on that stop me from doing it. Do u guys have any suggestions or any good words so i can deal with this problem right now?
Thank u so much and i hope i will get a good responds