This is one of those things that I discovered about myself accidentally when I was in college.
I knew I was probably gay, I had a girlfriend, even though at the time I fantasized about being emotionally and physically close to men.
So, the day after breaking up with my girlfriend, I met this really nice guy in class, and we clicked immediately- like it was a total bromance. I started going over to his apartment to play video games, until one night I told him that his beard looked scraggly and that he should shave. He hemmed and hawed about not knowing how to shave, so I said I’d teach him.
Standing in the bathroom of his apartment with his face all wet from the sink water, the closeness of it all gave me a raging hard on. Like, I really wanted to kiss this guy. When the shave ended, he looked beautiful. Masculine but with a this perfect skin and eyes.
I looked down to see if he was hard, and he wasn’t, so I said sillily, “Oh man I almost wanted to kiss you.” He asked why I didn’t, and I explained that he didn’t seem comfortable (or appear excited). He said he wanted to, too.
I leaned in for a kiss and we intensely made out. I was so fucking attracted to everything about this guy. His eyes, lips, small but defined muscles, his attitude, Intelligence. He was so sexy.
He abruptly stopped and told he was trans (FTM transman). It took all but five second for me to say, “I don’t care, I like you.”
When the pants came off, there it was: a vagina. I cannot explain how the whole experience felt, but I felt like I was with a man. The vagina was just a way to give him pleasure. I sort of just imagined his clit as a small dick, and focused on making him whimper until he was outright begging me to be inside him. I am mostly a top so this really did it for me psychologically and sexually.
Anyway, moral of the story for me is that apparently my level of attraction is more about the person than the genitalia. Does that make me less gay? Maybe? I’m not sure and I don’t really care.
I have not had a similar experience since, but I’m surely open to it with the right person.