I'm 18 and striaght but a curious guy, I have two straight male friends who I go over every friday night after college and everytime we get drunk we start joking around. They would take my pants down or hold me down and imagine bumming me (while they still have trousers on) or they would rub all over my body. It's suppose to be funny, acting out gay and sexual things onto me, but I think it goes a little bit over the top with the whole 'pretending to have sex with me'. Also about 2 months ago when we went to see Brokeback Mountian at the cinema, (YES BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN) my mate (male) jokingly reached into my pants when the 'gay sex scene' bit came on...and he went rather a bit to far and put his hand on my crotch. Then pulled it out quickly cos he was sitting next to his girlfriend. I was just wondering if these jokey gay attempts on my body are that of real desire? Or as they all have girlfriends and say they are straight they are actually just doing this as a joke. I'm still in the closet that i'm curious about men, would like to know your opinions.