"L" is for the way he looked at me. "O" is for the one-eye thrust in me. "V" is sensually...oohhh...extaoridinary. "E" is even more, yes, GIVE ME MORE! Sigh, yes its troubles of the heart. To women and str8 men, I love you much, but I need to hear this from my extended family. Gay couples, yoru advice is paramount. I'm looking for love philosophy. I work better with philosophy than advice because with advice you have to reverse engineer the philosophy, with philosophy alone, you can apply and learn. I'm a picky guy. Match.com confirmed it. When they had their physical attraction test (which they no longer have, a point I was so sore over that I deleted my profile of their site...), i found that I was more selective about physical appearance than 99% of the population. To make finding a partner even more difficult, I have my fetish to contend with. I have some fetish friends who advised: "Never hide something like this from your bf, it just wont work." Now, of the handfull of people left in the world that can meet those criteria, lets find those that are also interested in similar non-sexual things. I mean, two lovers cant spend ALL their time in bed. Oh just shush...yes, you...I heard that. It's so difficult being picky, but str8 people seem to do just fine. On top of that, I'm gay, there goes at least 85 % of the eligible population, and I'm fairly introverted, a limitation that has no real cure. If I had all teh time in the world and no familial baggage, I could devote myself to making one guy the happiest man on earth, but I realize that is a mistake only a fool would make. Besides, I have my own ambitions. I just really want to share them with someone. Sadly, as a societally and emotionally repressed young man, I now have incredibly strong yearnings for things which I dont need, and probably will never have. Big dicks are great, and i doubt I would be as fascinated with them if i wasnt as big myself. Still, its just not societally acceptible anywhere for a boy to chase dick, big or otherwise. I still dream about having a very nice bf with 10+ inches...and before you tell me I suffer deulsions of grandeur, I already know. Anyway, that enough for now. What I want to know is: How do gay men find love?...And where can an introverted young man, with a lot to offer and few ways to show it, get his foot in the door?