Hi there.. I've been posting here for a while now but haven't really needed to start proper topic untill this one.. Basically, I'm 19 and more or less gay. The thing is, when I see a hot guy, in real life, on the TV, wherever; more often than not I get an immediate disliking for him, and I can only put this down to intimidation or jealousy. Its especially bad when a ton of girls are swooning over some random good looking guy, I get really embittered. For example the current obsession with Robet Pattinson...I get raged just looking at him. Even if I secretly fancy a guy and someone makes a comment like 'oh he's good looking' I'll say something along the lines of 'No he's not' and then make a list of reasons why. Is this a maturity thing? Will I grow out of it? Do any of you experience the same thing....Its probably an attention seeking/insecurity problem, but yeesh I dont want to be going out with fugly guys for the rest of my life!