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I've been trying to define a relationship I had with a high school friend.He was older than me.We became friends the same year he graduated.I knew he was different and a little feminine.I didn't care nobody else ever said anything about him.The next year, I didn't make it thru school and dropped out.A lady friend I worked with, and was having an affair with,reintroduced us.She was thinking that he,being happy and full of life, could help me thru my rough time.Well I eventually ended up moving in with him and his family.They were accepting of me.Felt good to be welcomed.Here's where it becomes interesting,but confusing for me.We had a relationship and I didn't even realize it!No sex had ever happened between he and I,or kissing.We eventually had a sexual relationship.He filled the role of the girl for me.I never did take it in the ass or go down on him.We never kissed either.He always took it in the ass and went down on me.He never asked me for any ass or head not even a hand job.Still to this day,I've never been with another guy.I have no interest in guys at all,even back then.For years I've been wondering about 2 things,1- Was I experiencing true unconditional love?2- Am I gay,bisexual or straight?I understand bisexual behavior,but I never had a man in me.The thoughts of a guys dick up my ass or in my mouth kinda turns my stomach.No offense to anyone who is gay or bisexual.Just not my thing.BTW for those who wanna know.I let money come between him and me.It cost me possibly the most fulfilling relationship I ever have had.We lost contact soon after.