I'm just getting really lonely. I feel like I'm not going to find anyone I can get along with. I've always been a loner but I've never had a real girlfriend; the closest I had was when I "dated" this wholesome christian value girl. She was nice, but she was completely uninterested in the physically side of love, and when I say completely I mean COMPLETELY. She told me she never once masturbated in her 16 (i was 17) years of being on this earth, now that is extreme. So after.. the first day, hell the first hour actually I knew it wasn't going to work out, but I didn't say anything for 2 weeks because I'm a nervous coward. that was over a year ago. Now most recently I was talking to 2 Chinese girls who moved to Chicago, they are both sisters and .. were extremely sexy. Unfortunately as I thought it was too good to be true and they a most probably a 40 year old fat dude behind a computer screen. So thats gone, but I never felt any love for them, so its alright. But I just.. I don't know; is 18 too early for any of this? I am very picky when it come to women but its all in personality, they have to be mature for there age (though I'm not age discriminate, I wouldn't mind someone older then me). I'm not trying to find my perfect someone, because my perfect someone is a impossibility because of what weird crazy stuff I dream up because of how much the internet has ruined my mind, though I could describe her in infinite detail. But I'm not explaining what would probably a mental issue to most I'm here to say that I'm extremely lonely, and.. well thats about its. ahaha I know that not much to post about in a reply but.. maybe getting this out there might help me.