Although I've mentioned this in previous posts, I'm not sure I've tried to express it in terms others can relate to in their own sexual experience. Sucking cock to me goes far beyond a simple act of servitude or service. It becomes an escape, a dream state of total bliss, joy, focus, ideation, objectification, deification and comfort. When I am in that state with a true oral top who "gets it", the world around me, with all the tension, anxiety, conflict, anger and stress just goes away for that moment in time. I am with my emotional savior, my feeder cock, who provides all the safety and joy I need. I've talked about the fact that I find myself softly moaning when I am in the moment and am feeling it. It's not something I even think about, it just happens. And then there are those moments when I stop sucking and just lay my head down on his cock and feel it pulsing against my skin and I give thanks for that moment, for him and for a cock that connects with my love and passion. And when my feeder decides to cum, it's a special, magical, emotional time for me. The culmination of our time together. And I want to spend a few moments with the cock following, lightly stroking, blowing it dry and allowing the full post-cum pearls to be licked clean. After a session like that I am on a high for hours. Cock is an abundant sense of peace and joy to me. And I crave that state of grace.