"@Frnkd213 Both of your guesses about me are true. I do plan on going to college with the GI Bill but it seems like everytime I have a plan it doesn't work out plus its like everybody I go to for help fucks me over including my own fucking mother. I do exercise and watch what I eat too. I'll check out your friends blog too. "
Well I'm glad that I can be of some help.
I'm going to be philosophical now as I see a moment that I can not past up, I hope you take it positively. I had to take my keyboard out for this one.
Here goes, first of all lets change some mind set.
"everybody I go to for help" When you find validation of yourself in the response that you get from people including mother and it's with a preconceived answer it's really difficult to here any other message that may be helpful to you. Yes I am not aware of the circumstances but again with the information I have I am responding.
What is validation- it can be "yeah I'm cool," " or "See I am a fucking jerk", "see people are fucked up because that's what they to to me"
We find validation in the way we feel about our selves by looking at those around us, or our circumstances etc. Those that create validity- who we perceive as successful- see positive results as validation. Failures or negativity drives them to even be more determined. To prove themselves, to fulfill a goal, dream, or whatever. Standing on you own two feet firmly planted on your dreams and goals create success.
In spite what others say, or not say, if your are determined to succeed change your perception of who you see yourself, assertiveness not aggressiveness see positive results.
The golden rule "do on to others etc." well the problem with that is you may see it as "because they did it to me thats why I did it" it could mean because they fucked me up that why I am the way I am, blaming will get you nowhere. let me tell you.
I used to say, well still say, to my son, if you can not accept the answer don't ask. Otherwise you'll blame me for the results.
This is but a small piece of advice I can give you. I do reccomment that you seek counseling it will do you a whole lot of good. Its for you not anyone else.
When everything is said and done, everyone who you feel fucked you over (and probably doesn't even know it) will be way along their life's path. What's yours? I would like to know that your path was made by you with the help of your friends family and strangers you meet, people like me, or others here on LPSG, wherever, otherwise if you don't see as YOU having made it again its so easy to excuse it an blame.
Get off the train of blame, guilt, remorse, and regret. You are still very young, and do have goals, how you achieve it is up to you. But until you come to the conclusion and ask yourself what do I want in life (a good fuck really is not very future oriented, you can buy one if you get that desperate) you will end up on that train for life.
There I said it. Now go for it, today is a new day, the economy is still shit but that's okay, mother is still %^&*&%% ing me up but thats okay, I can't get a fucking fuck but that's okay (my right had is alway there for me).
Now is when you yell a ho-rah or whatever the army yells. take a deep breath a go for it .:You_Rock_Emoticon::You_Rock_Emoticon::You_Rock_Emoticon::You_Rock_Emoticon::You_Rock_Emoticon::You_Rock_Emoticon: