Two days ago, I had sex with a man for the first time in over a year. It was only the fifth time I've been penetrated, and the third by the same man (I've posted about it before). I fellated him. I asked if he'd photograph me. He's very secretive. I had to email him so he'd buzz me into his home. He almost said, no.
Then I sucked some more, got bored, and asked if he wanted to fuck. He didn't seem to like the abruptness.
He put on a condom. I stood and bent over. And, of course, since he's 8.5, it hurt like hell (I always think of the analogy of a woman forgetting the pain of childbirth until she has her next child).
He took his time. I breathed deeply. I told myself I'd walked 20 minutes in the freezing cold to do this. I actually stood on my toes, even though I didn't need to, because he's shorter than me (it made me feel more submissive). As a masculine man who'd rather be with a woman, if only one were available, but who has fantasies he needs to act on occasionally, if only to get outside of his mind and troubles (and get a naughty thrill!), being penetrated by a hung, effeminate, total top is a huge turn-on.
He was patient. Over the next several minutes, he moved it back and forth, very gradually. Eventually, he did a slow steady rhythm. I looked down and noticed that I wasn't erect but the pre-cum was dripping.
But then he began banging me to the hilt. All 8.5. I took what I could. My butt made gas sounds, which was embarrassing. And I needed to stop. He said, too much? And removed his condom.
I wanted to change positions. So I waited on my knees, bent over the couch, while he put on a fresh condom (I appreciate that he's so careful about this). But then more ramming. I thought I'd cum but I only dripped pre-cum. I thought, count the strokes. The masochist in me lost count after 50. And then I had to stop.
He complimented me on doing way better than last time. But I'm wondering--is it reallly necessary to fuck to the hilt? When I fuck women, I just push the first half or 2/3 of my cock inside her to get off. I do it to the hilt to make the most of my 6.5. If he'd stopped an inch or two short, I'd have been able to go on much, much longer. And he would have gotten off. Although it takes him forever to cum. (The first man I was ever with came over 8 strokes. Well, less than 20 strokes.)
Any thoughts?
Then I sucked some more, got bored, and asked if he wanted to fuck. He didn't seem to like the abruptness.
He put on a condom. I stood and bent over. And, of course, since he's 8.5, it hurt like hell (I always think of the analogy of a woman forgetting the pain of childbirth until she has her next child).
He took his time. I breathed deeply. I told myself I'd walked 20 minutes in the freezing cold to do this. I actually stood on my toes, even though I didn't need to, because he's shorter than me (it made me feel more submissive). As a masculine man who'd rather be with a woman, if only one were available, but who has fantasies he needs to act on occasionally, if only to get outside of his mind and troubles (and get a naughty thrill!), being penetrated by a hung, effeminate, total top is a huge turn-on.
He was patient. Over the next several minutes, he moved it back and forth, very gradually. Eventually, he did a slow steady rhythm. I looked down and noticed that I wasn't erect but the pre-cum was dripping.
But then he began banging me to the hilt. All 8.5. I took what I could. My butt made gas sounds, which was embarrassing. And I needed to stop. He said, too much? And removed his condom.
I wanted to change positions. So I waited on my knees, bent over the couch, while he put on a fresh condom (I appreciate that he's so careful about this). But then more ramming. I thought I'd cum but I only dripped pre-cum. I thought, count the strokes. The masochist in me lost count after 50. And then I had to stop.
He complimented me on doing way better than last time. But I'm wondering--is it reallly necessary to fuck to the hilt? When I fuck women, I just push the first half or 2/3 of my cock inside her to get off. I do it to the hilt to make the most of my 6.5. If he'd stopped an inch or two short, I'd have been able to go on much, much longer. And he would have gotten off. Although it takes him forever to cum. (The first man I was ever with came over 8 strokes. Well, less than 20 strokes.)
Any thoughts?
