I am posting this thread to say goodbye, and because I don't think some people understand just how DAUNTING the LPSG forums can be to new members.
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Coming here as a new member was quite confusing at first. There seemed to be an hierarchy of members, and it took me ages to figure out the "nobility" of LPSG -- who was who.
I was initially thrilled to find some people who talk about things that I was interested in (and had very little opportunity to talk about, given my background and particular situation in life).
But in my over-enthusiasm, I spoke too much. The existing members all knew each other and were busy tinkling on each other, and I must have seemed like an annoying mosquito with my, HEY! Listen to ME! I'm here too!
I can't tell you the number of stupid posts I made. I thoroughly annoyed some people, including but not limited to Snoozan, NJQT, and some other people I won't name. I still annoy them sometimes.
Some of the responses I got literally had me in tears. And it still happens: Just this morning I had one.
I've had people tell me to toughen up. I even had someone tell me that I shouldn't bother getting out of bed if I can't "take it".
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But I guess that's what breaks my heart: I finally learned the ropes, I finally became one of those "known" people... but the community I worked so hard to understand and join is now busy saying how sucky it all is.... and guess what...
By extension, I'm part of that "suckiness."
Don't tell me to toughen up. Don't tell me I'm overreacting. I am who I am.
I have bad stuff happening in my life right now, and I don't need more negativity. I can only take just so much negativity, so I guess (unnamed) is right. I shall just have to crawl back into bed.
So goodbye for now.
I might be back if/when life is better.
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Quick aside: From a newbie's viewpoint, the best LPSG member was Pecker, because he never judged, he never put anyone down, he always said hello to new people, and he always had something funny to say. (I never got the chance to say it, but you're fantastic, Pecker. I'm your #1 fan.)