Ok this is messin me up. and im trying to fight it. heres the thing. i live a straight life. same for my buddy. we've been hookin up since 8th grade. now in our last year of college. im kinda getting feelings for the guy and i dont think hes on the same page. but it fucks me up when we hook up. Yall are prob gonna say just stop hooking up with him. I think hes perfect and ild anything for the guy. ahhh i just needed to write that out. im sad cuz he came over tonight, butt was texting this chick the entire time and felt jealous... when i shouldnt be. think i was just expectng a hookup but we just watched a movie and i waned to do something more. man idunno. frustrated and confused.