I have a bit of a predicament at the moment. Its nothing major, but its something that Id feel better about once I got some feedback from you guys.
Ive been seeing this guy for a while now and I think hes really great. Hes always telling me he wants to see me and that Im really cute, yada yada. We both have Grindr profiles and Ive noticed how much hes online and I have kind of teased him that hes a bit of a Grindr whore, never actually meaning anything by it. Last night I was teasing him again and mentioned that while he was getting ready to go out I was gonna see what all the hype was about and check out some of the guys hes been talking to. He didnt really object to it when he walked off, and I hesitated for a second before I grabbed his phone and took a look for myself. It was wrong of me, I know. Initially I was just looking to see who he had favorited, and I never had any intentions of reading his conversations with these boys. Well, curiosity killed the cat. I opened up the Recent section of the app and noticed some guys who had tried to hit me up in the past. I started glancing through what had been said between him and these random guys. In every single conversation I saw he had given them his phone number and address. The timestamps even indicated that hed been sending them this information even when we were planning on going out and while we were in each others company. Talks of having sex, showering together, to name a few, were all on the itinerary. I immediately felt sick to my stomach. Not wanting to let on what I had just seen, I still went out with him for some drinks. For the first time I was lost for words and didnt know what to say to him, so the night started out fairly awkward.
After a few drinks I loosened up a bit and the rest of the night was ok, but all through today Ive had a horrible knot in my stomach. Who else has he been sleeping with while Ive been having sex with him? While Im working, whos he had over to his place? How many times has he lied to me when hes told me hes home alone watching TV? Is he just talk or is he actually following through with these boys? When I first met him he told me how nervous he was, so it seems unlikely he'd do this a lot if it made him nervous. The thought just makes me cringe. I dont see why he would send them his address if he were just having a flirt with them online though
For the first time I have made no effort to contact him today, and I havent heard from him. I want to talk to him and put him on the spot, but at the same time I dont even wanna look at him. Im glad nothing ever really progressed out of our relationship because something like this would have probably sent me over the edge if I were in love with him. Glad I found this stuff out now rather than later on down the line. I just feel really gross right now.
Ive been seeing this guy for a while now and I think hes really great. Hes always telling me he wants to see me and that Im really cute, yada yada. We both have Grindr profiles and Ive noticed how much hes online and I have kind of teased him that hes a bit of a Grindr whore, never actually meaning anything by it. Last night I was teasing him again and mentioned that while he was getting ready to go out I was gonna see what all the hype was about and check out some of the guys hes been talking to. He didnt really object to it when he walked off, and I hesitated for a second before I grabbed his phone and took a look for myself. It was wrong of me, I know. Initially I was just looking to see who he had favorited, and I never had any intentions of reading his conversations with these boys. Well, curiosity killed the cat. I opened up the Recent section of the app and noticed some guys who had tried to hit me up in the past. I started glancing through what had been said between him and these random guys. In every single conversation I saw he had given them his phone number and address. The timestamps even indicated that hed been sending them this information even when we were planning on going out and while we were in each others company. Talks of having sex, showering together, to name a few, were all on the itinerary. I immediately felt sick to my stomach. Not wanting to let on what I had just seen, I still went out with him for some drinks. For the first time I was lost for words and didnt know what to say to him, so the night started out fairly awkward.
After a few drinks I loosened up a bit and the rest of the night was ok, but all through today Ive had a horrible knot in my stomach. Who else has he been sleeping with while Ive been having sex with him? While Im working, whos he had over to his place? How many times has he lied to me when hes told me hes home alone watching TV? Is he just talk or is he actually following through with these boys? When I first met him he told me how nervous he was, so it seems unlikely he'd do this a lot if it made him nervous. The thought just makes me cringe. I dont see why he would send them his address if he were just having a flirt with them online though
For the first time I have made no effort to contact him today, and I havent heard from him. I want to talk to him and put him on the spot, but at the same time I dont even wanna look at him. Im glad nothing ever really progressed out of our relationship because something like this would have probably sent me over the edge if I were in love with him. Glad I found this stuff out now rather than later on down the line. I just feel really gross right now.