Hello Everyone This is the first time I have posted on here but have been a member for awhile now. I have an issue that I have been trying to deal with and so far I am loosing the battle. On Dec 31 My girlfriend and I broke up after 7 years of being with eachother. We we engaged and had everything planned out. One day I was at work and she sent me a message saying that she didnt know what she wanted no more and that she does not see this relationship going anywhere this was in september. I tried my best to work things out and she said she would try to but from that day to december she never said she loved me anymore but i said it to her. I noticed before all this happend that she took off the ring and at that time i thought it was because it might have been to tight.When I got her message my heart dropped and i couldnt breath i was lost. I went home early from work and called her to see what was going on. She said I didnt lover her anymore and and we were growing apart. From that day i tried to change myself to make me a better person i did this for 3 months trying to prove myself to her again that the guy she loved is still here and loves her just like the day we met that was untill December 31. I was at my best friends place for new years and i was venting to him about the situation i was in and how much i missed her and care for her. Then he turns to me and says that he had to show me somthing. So he opens a message that my gf sent him and it said how do i tell him we are not getting back together. When i saw that message all my anger and all my hate that i have bottled down inside me came out. She led me to belive that we would get beack together and all she needed was time to think and figure things out but the truth was she already made up her mind and screwed with my mind. When we broke up she said she wanted to be friends and i looked at her with fire coming out of my eyes and smoke coming out of my ears and i told her shes dead to me and i never want to see her again and i wanted the ring back. Not even a month goes by and she messages me asking how im doing i told her im fine just trying to keep myself busy to keep my mind off things. She told me that before we broke up she met a guy and they were talking and he would pick her up to go for coffee and bullshit like that and they kept close for months and she finally tells me that she told him that she had feelings for him more then a friend. Now keep in mind its not even a month that we broke up and shes telling another guy she has feelings for him. I told her i dont give a damn shes dead to me and told her to piss off. Later I was at my friends house and he tells me that the guy she had feelings for only wanted to get in her pants. She never slept with the guy cause shes the kind of girl that has to be in a commited relationship before she has sex. But long story short she got into a bad crowd that went drinking on the weekends and she never drank when we were dating and this guy was just playing with her emotions. In april i met somone and we started to hang out alot and i found out we went to the same high school together. We have been together for 5 months now and there is a wall between us and its not her fault its mine cause i am still trying to get my ex out of my mind and thats why i cant sleep at night cause i have bad dreams and i see her face. The reason i am writing this is cause i find that when i talk about it and get it out of my mind i am not so angry anymore.