Funny, I rarely post, but this on got me. I am in a great deal of pain right now over a "straight" guy. He is younger, thinks of me as a mentor, and we love each other deeply. i can't control my feelings, but i can control my actions. it is very difficult because we spend a good deal of time together. he flirts, but doesn't know it. watches my lips when i talk, looks at my arms when i stretch, complements me on my appearance (even my feet), rubs suntan lotion on my back at the beach with out me asking, etc... talks to me about his girlfriend issues....
all of his actions are innocent....but my interpretations are based on my wishes/fantasies.
any ideas how to break the "crush" and focus on the real love we share would be most appreciated.ideas?