I know I said I was only going to update this every so often but(as it seems to so frequently happen in my life) people have chosen to fuck with the more primal, sex-based part of my brain leaving me at a loss. So naturally, I come to the only group of people who can answer my questions, give sound advice, and be accepting; you guys.
So in my school for the past semester, one of my periods in my schedule was a study hall that I could use to work, fuck around, talk, play cards, etc. In it was this guy(I guess I'll refer to him as J) who I've been crushing on for a now. A while ago, he got a girlfriend who is unbelievably attractive and all the straight men envy him for it and all the gay men back off because of it. I was kindof put off and sad because of this in the beginning but slowly forgot about it, still retaining the crush but knowing that it'll never happen. Over the past couple months, my crush has gone from me having nearly forgot about it to the point where I'm daydreaming about him like the guy from church. Now I know what the general opinion of situations like this are on the forums(don't do anything, he's already got someone else etc. etc.) but for over these past couple months, I believe he's been very subtly fucking with me. And it's gotten more frequent in past months.
For example, one day I'm in my study period, reading a murder mystery novel and not really socializing that much. I'm into my book and then I start to get thirsty. I get up to go to the fountain and I happen to notice that J was looking directly at me. He must have caught himself because he snapped his head in another direction opposite mine. Kindof confused, I got to get some water and come back and he's turned away from me. I was going disregard it completely then and there but I when I went to go sit down, I noticed that he changed his spot from directly to sortof facing me but his eyes kept looking in my direction and away the moment I noticed it.
About a month later, I was sitting in study, bored out of my mind, and I pulled out a deck of cards from my sweatshirt and just started playing Solitaire because everyone else was talking and I honestly didn't feel like asking if anyone wanted to play anything. J looks over at me and asks what I'm playing. I replied solitaire because no one else seems to want to play cards. He then turns over to two of his friends at the table and asks if they want to play Kent with me and him. They do and even though I'm nonplussed(and a bit annoyed to be perfectly honest lol), I take the cards back up and start shuffling them. He asked if I knew how to play and I didn't so I asked if he could just give me a quick run down and then he proceeds to move his chair(which had been near the head of the table and pretty far from mine) over next to mine and went and explained everything to me, all the while "accidentally" touching my fingers more than he needed to. THEN, he chose to be my teammate, which was odd because you need to be diagonal from your partner in Kent and there was already someone there.
There was a bunch of other things but on the face of it, do you guys think I'm right in thinking he's hitting on me? Or is he just being friendly and the water fountain thing was just some weird shit? I don't know
