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Hello everyone.
Excuse the long message, just trying to give as much background as possible for your honest opinions. Any questions feel free and i will get back to you all as soon as i can. Thanks in advance.
20 year old male here, in a year and half long gay relationship with my boyfriend aged 26. He proposed to me very recently in front of a crowd and i feel i may have said yes out of pressure. I do love him and we get on very well but i have this feeling like I'm not ready for it or maybe he still isn't the one for me.
We had spoke about marriage a few times, most recent was about 2 month ago were i said i would want to marry him but i wasn't ready yet and he agreed ( i mean you can’t exactly say no to that question plus he would get very upset or self conscious about it, if i did say no). So i kinda expected to talk about it again at some point and the marriage subject would be in the distance, even another year. I maybe now feel that this is my fault and that i didn't explain my feelings properly.
He is also the first and only one i have ever been in a relationship with and had sex with. He has had multiple partners before me. I in all honesty, think a lot of the time about sex with someone else and get upset at times knowing i cannot. We have spoke about it and he said he is completely against an open relationship but might dabble in a threesome. I would never cheat but don’t want to feel this way forever. In honesty i wish i fucked around before settling in a relationship. Wish that this relationship had happened later on in my life. Were i was older and maybe more mature and settled in my own personal life.
I am a part time student, not making much money at all. I have only recently (less than a month) came out to my whole family as being gay and now will have to explain to them i am getting married. My dad and brother have not even met him yet but my mum and sister have and they like him. I feel like i am too young and unprepared to be at this stage in life and don’t know what to do or think.
All my friends who know are all so happy for me and congratulating me. I almost feel trapped in some way. He has told his family and they are happy and i just feel i am pretending to be happy.
Any advice would be very appreciated
Excuse the long message, just trying to give as much background as possible for your honest opinions. Any questions feel free and i will get back to you all as soon as i can. Thanks in advance.
20 year old male here, in a year and half long gay relationship with my boyfriend aged 26. He proposed to me very recently in front of a crowd and i feel i may have said yes out of pressure. I do love him and we get on very well but i have this feeling like I'm not ready for it or maybe he still isn't the one for me.
We had spoke about marriage a few times, most recent was about 2 month ago were i said i would want to marry him but i wasn't ready yet and he agreed ( i mean you can’t exactly say no to that question plus he would get very upset or self conscious about it, if i did say no). So i kinda expected to talk about it again at some point and the marriage subject would be in the distance, even another year. I maybe now feel that this is my fault and that i didn't explain my feelings properly.
He is also the first and only one i have ever been in a relationship with and had sex with. He has had multiple partners before me. I in all honesty, think a lot of the time about sex with someone else and get upset at times knowing i cannot. We have spoke about it and he said he is completely against an open relationship but might dabble in a threesome. I would never cheat but don’t want to feel this way forever. In honesty i wish i fucked around before settling in a relationship. Wish that this relationship had happened later on in my life. Were i was older and maybe more mature and settled in my own personal life.
I am a part time student, not making much money at all. I have only recently (less than a month) came out to my whole family as being gay and now will have to explain to them i am getting married. My dad and brother have not even met him yet but my mum and sister have and they like him. I feel like i am too young and unprepared to be at this stage in life and don’t know what to do or think.
All my friends who know are all so happy for me and congratulating me. I almost feel trapped in some way. He has told his family and they are happy and i just feel i am pretending to be happy.
Any advice would be very appreciated