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Discussion in 'New Member Introductions' started by pinkpiggie, Jul 6, 2011.

  1. pinkpiggie

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    So, I am here because I don't understand my unusually strong attraction to big penis. Maybe there are some people here who can help me figure this out.

    I am an average guy, 5'10" with a 6 inch penis, slim build. To this day, I've never really been attracted to any guys I ever meet, but there are times when I find myself unusually drawn to the sight of a very large cock. It all started when I discovered porn in middle school, of course. At first I was just like any other straight twelve-year-old, but after a couple years I started noticing the penis more, and wondered what it must feel like for a girl to have something like that inside of her. I also noticed how much more real some of them acted when they were getting penetrated by a very well-endowed man. It looked like these girls were in complete ecstasy. All through high school, I never thought I'd be attracted to a man's penis. At this point, it was just vagina envy.

    In college, I began to watch a lot of porn (of course), and noticed some of these guys were packing some serious heat. (Mark Ashley and Lex Steele became icons in my mind. Their big, beautiful cocks blew my mind, and I wondered what it feel like to hold one of those 9 inchers in my hand. It was then I started thinking more about being the girl in the videos instead of the guy. I eventually found myself frequently daydreaming, thinking about being penetrated and wishing that I was a woman so I could experience such pleasure. Then I realized these girls were also taking it in their ass, and I started thinking, why not try it? So, I bought a butt plug and a nice 9 inch dildo, and gave it a go. It felt fucking great! I celebrated every day my roommates were out of town with a good porn and dildo session.

    Obviously, I wondered if I was gay, so I signed up on a personals website and met a couple guys for some anonymous exploration. Each of these guys were average in height and endowment, and each time I left completely unsatisfied, and didn't really acquire an attraction to men, however I still enjoyed using my dildo. I would still find myself fantasizing about tall, athletic, and very well-hung men. I constantly fantasized about being a woman, started cross-dressing in private (my ass looks great in women's jeans), and I even went and got a body wax once. The feminine feel of my smooth skin while playing with my big rubber penis was unreal at first, but the ingrown hairs all over my body later on were horrible.

    So today, I am still unsure about all this. I'm not attracted to guys, but I find myself feeling awkwardly submissive around very tall, athletic men, always wondering if they have a big dick or not, and fantasizing about having sex with them... after getting a body wax... dressed in sexy lingerie... wearing a long wig... ...waking up tomorrow morning and discovering that I've transformed into a woman... et cetera.

    I just don't understand what's going on in my head.
     
  2. giant11

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    welcome and enjoy
     
  3. mandoman

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    If you think there are not a lot of guys like you, you'd be wrong.
    I'm minimally attracted to men, but I must say that I think about a big dick with some real longing. I'm very, very happily married to my childhood sweetheart, and have 3 kids. Average guy, average dick.
    20% of us are anally oriented. There are anally oriented lesbians. That's just how some are wired. Me, I love the feeling of a finger. As soon as it penetrates, all the good feeling is gone. If you get a good feeling, more power to you. The same thing goes for nipples.
    The cross dressing, people correct me if I am wrong, I understand to be stress relief.
    You have a complex sexuality. Welcome to planet Earth. I think you'll find people open enough to discuss it in here. I've never experienced such openness before, and have come to really cherish it.
     
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    Welcum! I'm glad you came here. I'm sure there is somebody within our group who can empathize & help you. Like mandoman said, we are all wired differently. I am a gay man who loves looking at straight porn! A 3 some MMF with a woman is one of my favorite fantasies! (Don't tell my husband) Getting pegged by a woman is another one. Don't try and label yourself and just try enjoy what gets you off! Good luck, buddy!
     
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    Thanks for taking the time` as a first post to express where you are at
    Can pretty well understand and sure do wish you luck in gettng further opinions and perhaps something that can be helpful for you, on lpsg
    we are all at differing levels and i caution you not to be disheartened and put off' by some folk who can be quite intolerant ( especially towards new members)
    case in point...only a few days ago a new member was partially castigated for TMI
    A lot of us are cynical and here for fun and etertainment with an ezpectation that mew members are either show offs/and or then need to harden up'?
    Just a heads up, overly confident in our sexuality you will find some who will rubbish you at every turn
    First thing you may notice is a virtual demand to 'put pictures up' and i feel nothing puts new members off the site than such.
    Toughen up already matey.
    I only spent time as you have taken the time,
    Just a caution, considering you put the time and effort into your intro...that i personally appreciate

    Have a GOOD time lpsg matey
    enz
     
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    Welcome
     
  7. parchissi

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    Hi there - good to see you have arrived - a warm welcome to you. Cheers.
     
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    Welcome to the site. Hopefully you find the answers you seek.

    Enjoy.

    Simba
     
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    Welcome.:smile:
     
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    This all sounds exactly familiar.
    I too was born male, and live as such, but sexually, I'm all girl.
    Enjoy and further your female side as it will only get better. There are surprisingly many women who will enjoy your company in bed, as well as men.
    It is a blessing to have both, as I'm sure you know, or will.
    Welcome to LPSG, and stay in touch if you would like to ask questions:smile:
    Donna :heart:
     
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