I've been checking out the site for a while, and finally decided to make an account, so I just wanted to say "Hello." It seems that a lot of people here are friendly and understanding, so I'd like to ask for some advice regarding sexuality. Right now, I feel like I've been walking the fence between either side, and I really have no idea where I'm going. I was picked on in school, called gay because my two closest friends were girls, and that continued from fourth grade through eleventh. I've had relationships with girls, but not having sex. Two years ago, I met a guy through an online dating site. We got together and fooled around a bit, which I enjoyed. Since then, I've had an everlasting struggle with myself. A few months ago, I got fed up with holding it in, and came out to a few close friends, but I think I did so prematurely. Since then, I've decided I don't know what I am, and I really don't know how to go about finding out. I suppose my biggest fear has been proving those bullies right, from which I've always been worried that it would come back to hit me. I've contemplated suicide, going so far as to beginning to compose a "farewell" letter, but I never finished that, and have since strayed from that direction. I really have no idea what I'm doing, so can anyone please help me?