First, look up what trolling is because that whole diatribe against me is a great example.
I've not once told anyone how to act or feel. If
@kellove gets everything he needs from his situation, then that's wonderful.
I understand
@kellove as he has described himself very well. I used to be like him.
Because there are so few of them, I felt like a voice of caution and levelheadedness was essential to consider. I get that that interferes with whatever the voyeuristic fetishes folk get from it, but oh well.
I've been around my share of blocks, and I get people. I'm not your savior or guide. I'm a guy who cares about others’ well-being. I'm not a bully. I communicate directly. My experiences nearly killed me. Yeah, sex and sex with the wrong people made an impact. I worked as farm hand and my boss beat me and stabbed me because when he tried to rape me, I resisted. I was in the middle of a 200-acre tree farm. No phone. Bleeding, disoriented and terrified. I ran as fast as I could and looked for hiding spots. I stopped for a breath and my boss was catching up to me, carrying a machete. I kept running and hiding and listening to him call out all the things he was going to do to me with that machete when he caught me. He didn't get me. I managed to make it to a road.
When my straight friend and I entered into our sexual relationship. We had the conversations and said the words that nothing would change. But everything did. And my self esteem and self-worth shattered. My lowest point came when I attempted to end my own life.
So, yeah. I know a thing or two about trauma. But I'm not anyone’s savior or victim.