Dragon88..
Being a BI isn't easy, as you have already discovered. We don't have the support
nor the new found acceptance that Gays are now enjoying, and unfortunately I am
not sure that BIs will be able to enjoy the same for some time to come. Just think
how long this new found acceptance has been in the works for Gays. And even now
it is still not completely acceptable by all.
Here on this forum I am out as a BI, and for the first time I am enjoying being a part
of a group of people whom the majority are non-judgmental and whom accept me as I
am....warts and all. I am grateful to them and it has been a real catharsis for me.
There're very few outside of this forum whom know my orientation, or whom would
understand or accept it should they know. So, I keep quiet about it. Although my
friends are mostly Straight, I also have a few Gay and BI friends. Only a few of my straight friends know that my other friends are Gay or Bi even though we socialize
together all the time (baseball, basketball, football games, gym, ski, hiking, camping,
etc). Most think we are ALL straight.....:wink:...and I don't see any reason to let
them in on the secret....:smile:
I live an outwardly straight life in a straight work-a-day world and don't see that it will
change anytime soon. I have been married and have 2 sons, but I am now divorced.
I have a long time partner (male) that is unknown to this day by most of my friends,
and I have no reason to tell this secret either.
I know that you want to be straight (pardon the pun) with all your friends, but WHY!
Are there reasons why you should need to share something with them that could cause you to lose their friendship. I know that many will say that if that would cause the loss
of their friendship, then it isn't a true friendship....but, there are somethings that really
should be kept private. If you value their friendship....keep quiet. When the time comes that being a Bi becomes more acceptable, then by all means do it. But, in the
meantime....keep it to yourself. Keep your friends and enjoy them, for without them
I'm sure you would be even more unhappy.
Regarding your "best friend"....if you are that close do you think that he might suspect
that you are Gay? I am sure he probably wouldn't even think about BI! Has he ever
mentioned his religious feelings, maybe in a way to be "telling" you something...maybe
that he has an intuition? Have you had deep and long conversations about the "evils"
of same sex relations, masturbation, etc.? Does he feel the same way about premarital
sex? It seem strange that in Scandinavia there would be any hangups about sex. I
don't mean that as bad, since I belive (or have been led to understand) that there is
more sexual freedom there, which I think is a very good thing.
If he's so against it all, do you really want to take the chance and possibly jeoprodize your friendship? I think you know that he is possibly wrong for you, and that your
friendship is more important at this time. Who knows, maybe things will change
someday, but I doubt it. Just keep the friendship and keep your secret love for him in
your heart.
You don't say how old you are, but if you are a student and have thought you were BI
for 5 years, then you are still young. I believe absolutely that we are born with our
sexual orientation and what we are cannot be changed. I also don't believe that you
can "learn, be influenced, or be converted" to being Gay, or to change from Gay to BI,
or be changed from being Gay to being straight. What you are is what you are, but
if you are BI, remember you can have stronger feeling for either sex at different times.
At those times your sexuality is dictated by your heart and groin....:wink:...and you
have very little say or control of the matter. :smile:
You don't say if you are already a Christian, but have just not been a practicing one.
I am an Eastern Orthodox Christian and I don't believe that I am a lesser one just
because I was born BI and had no choice in my identity. I cannot believe that my love
for another human, no matter the sex, can be a bad or un-Christian thing. Our body,
heart, emotions, feelings and desires were a gift to us from the Creater and I truly
believe it was man whom has created all the sexual taboos that we today use as our
"guides." Regarding masturbation, as any good doctor will tell you, it is healthy for man and will help keep the prostate healthy. That I have been told by numerous doctors.
So I do not think it bad when I do it.
So, for me, you can be a good Christian and be BI, and masturbate too. But, only you can make that determination, no one else.
Good luck, and if you like I would be happy to PM with you.
Silver