Hello,
Here I have a problem, I have the impression of becoming a pervert and an obsessive and that scares me. I want to clarify that everything is true
Already I would like to point out that I am 31 years old, I am gay, shy and still a virgin. As a result, I masturbate a lot and watch a lot of porn (hence my presence on this site). The problem is that over time, when I masturbate, I am no longer myself. When I masturbate I am neither sexy nor handsome and I am borderline pathetic.
Already, when I masturbate, I spend too much time there, between 2 or 3 or 4 hours. In addition, I got into the habit of ritualizing the act. I have special outfits (old t-shirt, socks and slippers). I always sit at my desk, I am in my world and I completely shut myself off from the rest of the world. So far nothing very extraordinary.
But the more I masturbate, the weirder I am. In everyday life, I am shy, introverted and kind. But when I masturbate, I'm obsessed, it's like I'm not myself anymore. It's like my penis has taken control. And what makes me most ashamed is that after a while I start drooling so much that I am not myself.
Usually I regain consciousness only when I have my orgasm at the end. And there I am ashamed. When I see myself full of lube and cum in the crotch and on the floor, my t-shirt drenched in drool and the smell of sweat and cum after several hours of masturbation, I start to cry. I'm very ashamed.
I would like to be normal and have normal sex with a nice guy, but I feel like my sexuality is destroyed and I am afraid to remain a pervert all my life. I'm really ashamed of what I'm telling you, but I don't know what to think. Please help me, can you give me your opinion and help me. Thanks
Sorry for my poor english, I'm french.
Here I have a problem, I have the impression of becoming a pervert and an obsessive and that scares me. I want to clarify that everything is true
Already I would like to point out that I am 31 years old, I am gay, shy and still a virgin. As a result, I masturbate a lot and watch a lot of porn (hence my presence on this site). The problem is that over time, when I masturbate, I am no longer myself. When I masturbate I am neither sexy nor handsome and I am borderline pathetic.
Already, when I masturbate, I spend too much time there, between 2 or 3 or 4 hours. In addition, I got into the habit of ritualizing the act. I have special outfits (old t-shirt, socks and slippers). I always sit at my desk, I am in my world and I completely shut myself off from the rest of the world. So far nothing very extraordinary.
But the more I masturbate, the weirder I am. In everyday life, I am shy, introverted and kind. But when I masturbate, I'm obsessed, it's like I'm not myself anymore. It's like my penis has taken control. And what makes me most ashamed is that after a while I start drooling so much that I am not myself.
Usually I regain consciousness only when I have my orgasm at the end. And there I am ashamed. When I see myself full of lube and cum in the crotch and on the floor, my t-shirt drenched in drool and the smell of sweat and cum after several hours of masturbation, I start to cry. I'm very ashamed.
I would like to be normal and have normal sex with a nice guy, but I feel like my sexuality is destroyed and I am afraid to remain a pervert all my life. I'm really ashamed of what I'm telling you, but I don't know what to think. Please help me, can you give me your opinion and help me. Thanks
Sorry for my poor english, I'm french.