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So there's going to be a lot to this story, but I need help.
One of my closest friends and I in the last few months have hooked up, it wasn't weird afterwards he just said that he's not ready for people to know that side of him, which I can totally empathise with, but our relationship only continued to grow from there, he'll message me when he first wakes to when he goes to sleep, about anything and everything, we go out together alone and he's cuddly and affectionate until someone else walks in the room, I understand he's in the closet, but its almost like he doubles down on the straight part of himself the morning after and will mention stuff about a girl he's "kinda seeing" but "not really"
time goes on and this continues, like I stay at his house but there's a fake mattress on the floor he pulls out so if his housemates see it looks like we didn't share a bed, again until he makes a move on me again, tells me he has feelings for me, I say I have feelings for him and this goes back and forth, usually with the same kind of "I love you, I just don't know how to navigate this", at this point I've fallen in love with him. I don't know a way to move forward without having to lose him completely, because he says he can't live without me, but I can't live in this limbo. Does he like me? Or does he like that I like him. This is a very TLDR version of what's happened, but I think I've covered the main points.
One of my closest friends and I in the last few months have hooked up, it wasn't weird afterwards he just said that he's not ready for people to know that side of him, which I can totally empathise with, but our relationship only continued to grow from there, he'll message me when he first wakes to when he goes to sleep, about anything and everything, we go out together alone and he's cuddly and affectionate until someone else walks in the room, I understand he's in the closet, but its almost like he doubles down on the straight part of himself the morning after and will mention stuff about a girl he's "kinda seeing" but "not really"
time goes on and this continues, like I stay at his house but there's a fake mattress on the floor he pulls out so if his housemates see it looks like we didn't share a bed, again until he makes a move on me again, tells me he has feelings for me, I say I have feelings for him and this goes back and forth, usually with the same kind of "I love you, I just don't know how to navigate this", at this point I've fallen in love with him. I don't know a way to move forward without having to lose him completely, because he says he can't live without me, but I can't live in this limbo. Does he like me? Or does he like that I like him. This is a very TLDR version of what's happened, but I think I've covered the main points.