Ok, I know I don't really post here too often but I do lurk around here pretty frequently. I feel even weird to talk about my problem but I do kinda need help in this since I'm kind of a virgin in all aspects of relationships.
I'm not out at all and I'm just starting to fully accept my life and actually seeing a future as being gay. So recently I met this guy at some sort of event, but I have always seen him around my high school (he was a senior when I was a freshman and I always had a slight crush on him) and sometimes we may end up at random parties together. Right now, we're both in our early 20s. But this time, he came up to me and actually introduced himself to me and we actually had a long conversation; he met my whole family there too. We somehow ended up exchanging numbers and 'friending' each other on Facebook
I didn't think anything would happen but fast forward a couple days, he texted me to go out with him to eat (never specified it was a date or not). However, I declined and told him next time definitely because: 1. I had pink eye, 2. I had to study for a big test the next day.
And since then we occasionally text each other all the time but that "next time" never came. There's so many signals that he keeps sending me through texts like complimenting my new hairstyle in such a way that NO straight man would ever say. And even calling my sister to check up on me. Whenever I'm in his part of town, I always text him and once even had the balls to ask him to hang out (which didn't happen due to my own time constraints). Lately though, we don't text each other as often as we did when this whole thing first started a couple months ago. But sometimes he can surprise me.
Sorry for this whole wall of text but I tried to make it easier on the eyes :smile:. I just want help because I've always had this thing for him and God gave me the chance to finally do something about it. And I told myself that I don't want to let this chance go without at least trying something for it instead of relying on faith. So please give me some advice. Thanks a lot!
I'm not out at all and I'm just starting to fully accept my life and actually seeing a future as being gay. So recently I met this guy at some sort of event, but I have always seen him around my high school (he was a senior when I was a freshman and I always had a slight crush on him) and sometimes we may end up at random parties together. Right now, we're both in our early 20s. But this time, he came up to me and actually introduced himself to me and we actually had a long conversation; he met my whole family there too. We somehow ended up exchanging numbers and 'friending' each other on Facebook
I didn't think anything would happen but fast forward a couple days, he texted me to go out with him to eat (never specified it was a date or not). However, I declined and told him next time definitely because: 1. I had pink eye, 2. I had to study for a big test the next day.
And since then we occasionally text each other all the time but that "next time" never came. There's so many signals that he keeps sending me through texts like complimenting my new hairstyle in such a way that NO straight man would ever say. And even calling my sister to check up on me. Whenever I'm in his part of town, I always text him and once even had the balls to ask him to hang out (which didn't happen due to my own time constraints). Lately though, we don't text each other as often as we did when this whole thing first started a couple months ago. But sometimes he can surprise me.
Sorry for this whole wall of text but I tried to make it easier on the eyes :smile:. I just want help because I've always had this thing for him and God gave me the chance to finally do something about it. And I told myself that I don't want to let this chance go without at least trying something for it instead of relying on faith. So please give me some advice. Thanks a lot!
