Hi - learn about me through this story

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  1. josh_j

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    Part 1 of 2 - Hotel steam room encounter and what it made me realise

    Hi everyone. I joined a few days ago but here's a true story that will make you understand more about me.

    A 5 star hotel near where I live has a great gym and large men's change area with a large steam room and sauna. I became a member there years ago. Most of the time, it's fairly quiet with only one or 2 other people around. I like going there.

    Once I finish my workout and hit the change area, I grab a towel and walk nude to the shower, and then walk into either the steam room or sauna nude. The only time I put the towel around me is if I walk into either room and I get disapproving looks. This is quite rare. Most of the time, if someone is in there, they will loosen up and remove their own towel or they will walk out, have a drink of water or a shower and come back in nude. It's really liberating to be naked in that environment.

    I don't really find it sexual and I rarely get an erection although my penis often stirs to something bigger than its normal flaccid state as I get more relaxed. If I am on my own and I have been horny during the day and still feel like that, I will sometimes have a wank but with the towel ready for coverage if I hear someone approaching.

    I have thought a lot about why I like being naked in this environment and I think it's because it's so rare to find a place you can just be yourself and not worry about wearing clothing. Also, I like to look at naked people too and it's always interesting to see what other guys look like without clothes. It's really taught me that body size and penis size are completely unrelated. I also like to be in an environment with other people who are uninhibited. I really like that.

    On Sunday, I went to the gym. It was around
    7pm. Once I finished my workout, I showered and was standing out of the shower drying off. I noticed a hulk of a man walking around in the change room - a huge rugby forward type. He glanced at me as he walked past. I did not really think much of it and entered the steam room and sat down naked as usual.

    After a few minutes, he came into the steam room wearing a towel around his waist and holding another towel. He must have been about 6'3 tall and as I said, just massive. Huge chest and legs but not really muscly. I thought he must have been an amateur rugby player or maybe a wrestler (he was that big). He glanced at me but didn't pay any attention. I thought about putting my towel on but decided not to bother - I was in there first! Anyway, he put his towel down on a section of the seating directly in front of me and laid down on the towel. The configuration of the steam room is like an L shape. I was sitting in the corner of the L on the top level and the section he was going to sit on was one level lower directly in front of me. It meant that when he laid down on his towel, my line of site was right between his legs - not that I could see anything as he was covered.

    A few minutes later, I walked outside (naked as usual) to get a glass of water. I returned to sit in my same position but this time when I looked down at this man, he had pulled up his towel so I got a direct view of his balls and some of his penis. He had large, hanging, shaved balls and a thick shaft although I could only see some of it as the top of it was covered by his towel. To be honest, I did not really think much of this - it was possible he was just getting too hot although I like to look and I kept grabbing a look whenever I could. I did not want to be obvious.

    Every so often, I would walk out and get some more water or he would (but in his case, wearing his towel) and we would resume the same positions. On one of these occasions, I looked down at him and I was sure he was sporting at least a semi.


    Eventually, I decided to push the agenda bit. The next time I came back in from a shower, I had a semi and sat in my same position open legged so he could see it. He did but he was not obvious in his looking at me at all. I noticed that he seemed to be getting bigger too but he was covering himself when it was getting bigger.

    It all came to a head when I went into the shower (leaving the door open) and he followed shortly after that by going and standing in the shower directly across from me (leaving his door open too). I gave myself a few tugs and got an erection and I noticed he was playing with himself too. I made sure to turn sideways so he could get a good look at my cock and he obliged. We were both careful not to look at each other too obviously. He then walked out with a hard-on (with a towel in from of him), checked that no-one else was around and walked into the sauna. I then followed. When I walked in, his towel was still around him. I decided that we had to end this game or we would both get heat stress so I sat down near him and said to him "This is just a bit of fun" and took off my towel and started stroking myself. He opened his towel and started pulling his cock. It was long but not too long - it was just incredibly thick. I have seen lots of cocks but I had never touched one before. In fact, I never had the desire to do so. But there was something about this whole experience that I decided was different. Maybe it was because we were (as it turned out later) 2 novices doing something for the first time. Or maybe it was because for some reason, he just had cock that really appealed to me - the size, shape, colour - the overall look of it I found faultless.

    He asked what I wanted to do - just wank or do something more. I said I had never felt another man's cock and would he mind if I held it? He said he had never done it either but that would be OK.


    So, I stood up, walked up to him and started feeling his cock, gently touching it all over, feeling the head, the underside and top of the shaft and feeling his low hanging balls. Then I started massaging it. It felt similar to mine but so very much larger. It was like a massively oversized thick but soft cucumber initially. But as he got more excited it got a lot harder, bigger and had a pronounced curve upwards.

    He asked if he could feel my cock and I said yes but I was so turned on that after a few strokes, I exploded in about 6 spurts that struck the steam room door with the rest of my cum falling closer to me on the floor. I was so paranoid someone would walk in that I quickly grabbed my towel and wiped it all up. When we were sure no-one was around, I stroked him some more and then he said, "Do you want to finish me off?" I said no but that I would be happy to watch. He then started the most vigorous pumping you can imagine. It was like something out of a porn movie. His cock can take an enormous amount of beating. He was pumping faster and faster and squeezing himself hard. His face had gone all red and he started to moan and then as he reached a dizzying pace, he came. He didn't spurt like me. The first spurt only went a couple of cm and landed on his left wrist on his watchband. The rest seemed to just come out in smaller quantities in shorter distances. We both smiled and walked to the showers.

    When we were back in the change area, I said "Thank you" to him and he said "No problem". It was all very polite and manly I suppose. As he left, he said he was staying at the hotel and would be there the following night too.

     
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    Part 2 of 2 - Hotel steam room encounter and what it made me realise

    I went back the next night at around the same time hoping to run into him again. I was excited when he walked again into the steam room. This time, we were both a lot more relaxed, smiled at each other, and said hello. Just as he was settling into the same position he had taken in the steam room the day before and I was considering walking out to get some water and return with a hard on and get him to give me a tug, another man walked in wearing a towel. So disappointing. The worst thing was that I was sitting in the position I was in from the day before with a direct view between my friend's legs but now that someone else had walked in, it looked like an odd and obvious position to be sitting in so I walked out, took a shower and walked into the sauna. I was hoping my friend would follow me in.

    It was about 10 minutes later that I heard the steam room door open, someone come out, take a shower and then be at the door of the steam room. When the door opened, I saw it was my friend and he smiled at me and took a seat. Then in what was a corny attempt at humor, he started undoing his towel to reveal his huge hard on and asked me "Have you had a hard day? I have". I went over, told him his dick was amazing and incredible to touch and how much I had enjoyed the day before. He said he had enjoyed it too.

    I said I would like to do more with him but not in this place as anyone could walk in. He agreed that I could go to his room in the hotel so we changed and went to his room. In his room, we stripped. He lay down on his bed and I started to masturbate him while he pulled my cock. I was amazed by the size of his package - in fact, I was more in admiration of it than excited by the experience. I had no desire to suck him off or play with his ass or attempt anal sex. It was just sheer admiration for the size, look and feel of his massive cock and large balls (I would say they were the width of a CD, maybe wider). I have a feeling he wanted to do more but I was not really interested in more. By this stage, he was really enjoying being wanked by another man and he grabbed my right arm and squeezed it as he got more and more excited. Eventually, I sped up the pumping mirroring how he had masturbated the day before. It probably took at least 10 minutes of really hard pumping before he said he was about to come and then he did all over his stomach. I had cum a bit earlier than that.

    After we finished up, we chatted briefly but one thing that struck me was his confusion. I said to him I had never done that before and he said he hadn't either and that up to the day before he thought he was "straight as an arrow". I said I was not worried and that it just happened - it was an experience I was interested in having and that maybe it does not mean anything beyond that.

    When I dressed and left, I am sure he was probably wondering what it all meant. He wanted to give me his details as he would be back in town in the next couple of months but I told him not to worry about it. I wasn't sure if I would do this again so I did not really need his details. Maybe I wanted to keep it all a bit mysterious too. I did not know his name or who he was and vice versa and maybe I wanted to keep it that way.

    As I left, I wondered what this meant for me. And I think I know what it means:

    I love being naked in an environment where it is acceptable (like the steam room or a nude beach)

    I like looking at other naked people. I love seeing their bodies and their equipment. I like looking at both men and women. I like looking at men because I like to compare equipment. The range is incredible. I wish I knew this when I was in my adolescence. It would have saved me a lot of insecurity. I love looking at women, their breasts and inbetween their legs. Any hint of wetness is a real turn on for me.

    I like to admire beauty regardless of gender. Maybe this is what ancient painters were like or photographers of the body today.

    I don't really feel sexual when I see naked men. It's really more about me and if I feel horny. If I do and a man happens to be around, maybe it will lead to something like it did on this occasion but generally, the sexual tension depends on me. Even if someone else obviously shows interest, it really depends on how I feel.


    Even when I had this sexual experience with a man who really had a magnificent dick and balls, I had no desire for anything beyond giving and receiving a handjob. I was in a hotel in a great environment with someone who was happy to do whatever and yet, I had no interest in any other type of sexual escapade. I could have if I wanted to. I did not want to. And I think that if it was important to me or I had repressed an experience I wanted to have, I easily could have done it all this time.

    Being with a man is very different to being with a woman. For a start, men have the same equipment (subject to size variations) so you know how you would like to be wanked and you can apply that to another man. Men are more muscular so I suppose the experience can be much rougher if you want it to be. However, with women, there is a different atmosphere. I love the feel of a woman's soft skin, the feel of her curves, the lovely ampleness of her bosoms, kissing the back of her neck, squeezing her soft bottom and the incredible wet heat on the inside of her cunt, the feeling of the sliding of cock inside her and watching her enjoy herself. The experience is just so much more intense for me with a woman.

    I suppose I like to look at men and women but to be with a man requires precise timing and interest for me. If a man shows interest, it does not mean I will be interested. But if a woman shows interest, I just seem to become so much more receptive and odds are that something will happen.

    One great thing about this site is that it has shown me that human sexual experience is incredibly varied. Labels like straight, gay, bi etc don't really apply to everyone because each person is different and what they like can be completely unique.

    On that note, there was something I wanted to say to my friend after my experience with him. When he said that he had thought before this experience that he was "straight as an arrow", I wanted to say to him that he didn't need to cage himself in a category. He's just a human being with a sexual side and that sexual side gets curious for new experiences. If that means experimenting outside his comfort zone, so be it. For both of us, it might be the only time we do what we did. Or it may be the start of a whole new journey. Rather than assuming that we have to be one static stereotype and feeling like we can't venture outside that, it is actually OK to experiment and see what we like. Maybe it's just all part of being human.

    My dilemma was previously whether I was straight or gay. I was always attempting to create a box I could be in. I now see that is an unhelpful and pretty stupid approach. It is an attempt to make sense of my sexuality - to cage it and then throw away the keys so I don't have to think about it again. Maybe that's what most people do - maybe thinking this way is too hard for them. The way I think about it now is in terms of what I like and I what I don't like. If that means that the totality of the experience means I am sexually more satisfied with women, that's great. But if it means I also accept that I can be attracted to some men and possibly want to do something sexual with them, then that is OK too. It's not about acceptance of who I am from the world, it's acceptance of who I am by me.

    For anyone who has bothered to read this far, thanks for taking the time. It's been good for me and hopefully, for you too.
     
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    Firstly may I say welcome to the site and also thank you for being open and honest about your first sexual experience with a man. Yes we all have curiosity, which gets the better of us from time to time, some more than others. Personally I think there is nothing wrong in acting on this, provided all parties are willing an consentual and that it leaves no lasting guilt. Whether you pursue them again or take them a stage further only you can decide.

    No doubt having read many of this posts on this site you will realise you are certainly not alone with your thoughts and feelings.

    Love to chat with you, pm if you would like too

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    Thanks for your post. Yes, it was definitely consensual and there is no guilt. I take the approach that sometimes, things are just meant to be. If you spend too much energy repressing your urges, you will be the only one who suffers. A few days out from the event, I feel really relaxed and good about it. And one never knows the future so I am happy just to go with the flow.

    Thanks for reading it - I know it was long but I really wanted to put it out there and take it off my chest. I now see the great value in this type of cyber interaction for intensely personal stories and feelings that you may not wish to share in real life.
     
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    Hi Josh

    Going through things over and over in our mind is not the same as verbalising it ie getting it off our chest, verbalising gives us far more clarity to any given situation.

    I certainly get the impression that you are a very level headed guy who is totally grounded, by the way you said "I take the approach that sometimes, things are just meant to be. If you spend too much energy repressing your urges, you will be the only one who suffers"

    Yes your right Josh no one knows what the future hold for each and every one of us, so why waste time dwelling on it, simply let it be. enjoy the moment of the now, because the next moment may never happen. For some it doesn't

    I shall look forward to reading more of your posts Josh, hope you continue to enjoy the site as much as so many of us do. I for one have found it invaluable in many ways

    Take care

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