Risi,
this is my second post in this thread.
my first was just a couple of pages ago, if you need to refresh.
i just want to give you some advice about how to handle all this.
stop responding. stop checking out what others are saying, etc., etc.
it's not healthy for you. it wouldn't be healthy for me, either. heck, no one has that kind of strength. and to be honest, time. i think you're taking too much time in front of your computer seeing the worst in people.
go out. enjoy the day. go to a theme park, a museum. the movies. see the beauty that is out there.
but avoid these people and eventually the crap will subside.
i'd ask a lawyer to contact the owners of the main sites to take off your stuff because you were being violated by the person who put you through it. if they don't take the stuff off, so be it. have a lawyer do it though, to keep your heart and mind away from all of it.
to start a new slate sometimes the best way to do so is to just start.
leave the past alone.
you seem like a good person who is stuck because of what's out there.
my favorite quote in life comes from the movie "Parenthood:"
Grandma: You know, when I was nineteen, Grandpa took me on a roller coaster.
Gil: Oh?
Grandma: Up, down, up, down. Oh, what a ride!
Gil: What a great story.....[clearly wasting his time]
Grandma: I always wanted to go again. You know, it was just so interesting to me that a ride could make me feel so frightened, so sick, so excited, so scared, so safe, and so thrilled, altogether! Some didn't like it. They wanted to go on the merry-go-round. That just goes around. Nothing. I like the roller coaster. You get more out of it.
Grandma leaves to wait for them in the car as theyre on their way to see their two oldest kids in the school play. Gil looks after her like, Hunh? and makes a sarcastic comment.
Karen: I happen to LIKE the roller coaster, okay? As far as I'm concerned, your grandmother is brilliant.
Gil: Yeah if she's so brilliant why is she sitting in our NEIGHBOR'S CAR?!
life's a roller coaster. you took your lumps. keep going strong.
and on a side note -- sexual chocolate, thanks, and keep fighting the honest fight. don't hold back from the truth we know, no matter what they say.
