I've spent the past few days moving my parents into a retirement care facility in their hometown. They both have a lengthy list of health issues and handfuls of daily medication which have escalated to the point where they can no longer take care of themselves or maintain their own home. I know it's often a natural cycle of family life, but becoming my parent's caretaker these past few years is a role reversal I never felt ready for. Never mind all that I'm feeling, when the time comes it must be incredibly difficult to relinquish control of your own life the way they have. After 60 years of building a life together, last weekend they had to surrender to the majority of their possessions being sold for peanuts or given away to charities. How fucking numbing must this be? As they cope and adjust to this phase of their lives, I'm so grateful my Mom and Dad still have each other.
On the second day in their new home, my sister had to shuttle my Father an hour and a half away for his first dose of aggressive chemotherapy. While they were away, I had the opportunity to experience 3 meals with my Mom in her new 'dining room'. I was emotionally struck by all the kindness exchanged between the residents and staff of the retirement home. But what really moved me was seeing a few people who were sitting all by themselves. Of course it's possible they chose to be alone, but in the absence of knowledge I couldn't help but wonder if the 'lonely' sometimes have to play out their final days the same as they lived their lives all alone.
Does anyone else fear growing older without someone by your side?
I know I'm combining Naughty's wonderful threads here, but this past week made me think of a lyric that hits the spot, and a voice that makes me melt...
Hope There's Someone by Antony and the Johnsons
Hope there's someone
Who'll take care of me
When I die, will I go
Hope there's someone
Who'll set my heart free
Nice to hold when I'm tired...
On the second day in their new home, my sister had to shuttle my Father an hour and a half away for his first dose of aggressive chemotherapy. While they were away, I had the opportunity to experience 3 meals with my Mom in her new 'dining room'. I was emotionally struck by all the kindness exchanged between the residents and staff of the retirement home. But what really moved me was seeing a few people who were sitting all by themselves. Of course it's possible they chose to be alone, but in the absence of knowledge I couldn't help but wonder if the 'lonely' sometimes have to play out their final days the same as they lived their lives all alone.
Does anyone else fear growing older without someone by your side?
I know I'm combining Naughty's wonderful threads here, but this past week made me think of a lyric that hits the spot, and a voice that makes me melt...
Hope There's Someone by Antony and the Johnsons
Hope there's someone
Who'll take care of me
When I die, will I go
Hope there's someone
Who'll set my heart free
Nice to hold when I'm tired...