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It’s been many years and I still can’t shake it. Been to therapy several times. And I’m technically not even small…I’m in the average range so it can be so much worse. I’m just so sad that at this rate I’m stuck being average until I die.
Big dicks have such a power over me. I hate them for having this natural raw power that is God given (unearned). And yet I can’t resist them (im a gay size queen). I hate them because I want to have this big dick power over other guys that love big dick. I want to be praised for my big dick…to feel someone open up with hesitation as I penetrate them deeper than anyone has before and they say “you’re so big”. But no one says that cause I don’t have a big dick. I want to enter big dick contests like here on lpsg (where it seems bigger guys tend to win because that’s what we as guys appreciate more). I want to put “hung” on my Grindr profile so I can pull guys outside my league. I want a dick worthy of appreciation on this very site. I want to see those omg expressions as I reveal my cock for the first time to hookups. I want to feel the pride of knowing that I have a big dick (which is so valued in the gay world).
I mean obviously big guys are happier than average and small….just ask any hung guy “do u want to be average or small” and they’ll say no. Maybe they want to lose an inch but that still puts them in the large category. Dick reduction surgery is almost never done yet so many risk losing the ability to get properly hard in order to get bigger. It just seems so unfair that some guys are born being the envy of so many. Hung gay men are kind of like Gods in a way.
Seems you can do so much to improve almost anything about your body except your dick. And so I’m just left feeling like a lesser race of man compared to hung guys.
I tried doing some penis enlargement exercises a couple years ago and immediately I started having penis problems. I think I stretched it too much. I wasn’t able to pee. I had to go see a doctor about it. I’ve had complications ever since. Ended up my urethra got a stricture that caused peeing and cumming to hurt. Had surgery this week to widen the urethra. Recovering now…it hurts to get hard. And the whole time all I can think is “pleas universe…I just want to be hung”.
Being a size queen doesn’t help. I hook up and date hung guys in order to satisfy my constant craving to tour a big dick. There’s just something about the thickness and length that’s hypnotizing. 7 inches bone pressed by 5 inch girth is enough to do it for me. But I just find it so sad that I don’t have a dick that size attached to me that I can touch when I want and please lovers with. I have to meet someone to have that experience. And sometimes…I even meet hung guys basically just to use them for their dick. In these cases I’m transparent about this basically asking if they’re ok being fetishsized lol which some are uncomfortable with but most seem to love it. I tell them I just need to play with a big one since I don’t have one and they’re happy to oblige. Sometimes I pretend I’m them as I worship them. Of course occasionally I’m attracted to a guy who I actually like him as a person overall as well as the penis and that’s a perfect combo, but that doesn’t always happen.
But playing with big dicks just reminds me of the body I’ll never and makes me feel resentment and that’s not fair. I also think weird things like “Hung guys should share their dicks with less fortunate men since they won the lottery and get to play with their winnings and get validation from society that they’re size is hot while the rest of us just have to deal with being screwed over in the process”. It’s a vicious cycle.
I ramble. Just getting this out there. I’m leaning into being a bottom since I don’t have a dick that’s worthy of praise and fucking someone dominant top style per my standards. But I just thinking while I’m being pounded by big dicks, I wish we could trade cocks so I can top for a change sometimes and get praise
I know I sound selfish. So many have it worse. But I can’t deny my feelings.
Oh and I do wanna get the Phallofill procedure to increase girth someday. And I’m thinking about trying sleeves/extensions/prosthetics but I am worried they may just make me feel silly/pathetic. And I worry lovers won’t look at them as being my actual penis…which I know it wouldn’t actually be but to make me feel better I think we’d need to get in the headspace that they actually are my dick.
Rant done. Open to hear various thoughts especially any new ways to get bigger that I may not have heard of in the past year
Big dicks have such a power over me. I hate them for having this natural raw power that is God given (unearned). And yet I can’t resist them (im a gay size queen). I hate them because I want to have this big dick power over other guys that love big dick. I want to be praised for my big dick…to feel someone open up with hesitation as I penetrate them deeper than anyone has before and they say “you’re so big”. But no one says that cause I don’t have a big dick. I want to enter big dick contests like here on lpsg (where it seems bigger guys tend to win because that’s what we as guys appreciate more). I want to put “hung” on my Grindr profile so I can pull guys outside my league. I want a dick worthy of appreciation on this very site. I want to see those omg expressions as I reveal my cock for the first time to hookups. I want to feel the pride of knowing that I have a big dick (which is so valued in the gay world).
I mean obviously big guys are happier than average and small….just ask any hung guy “do u want to be average or small” and they’ll say no. Maybe they want to lose an inch but that still puts them in the large category. Dick reduction surgery is almost never done yet so many risk losing the ability to get properly hard in order to get bigger. It just seems so unfair that some guys are born being the envy of so many. Hung gay men are kind of like Gods in a way.
Seems you can do so much to improve almost anything about your body except your dick. And so I’m just left feeling like a lesser race of man compared to hung guys.
I tried doing some penis enlargement exercises a couple years ago and immediately I started having penis problems. I think I stretched it too much. I wasn’t able to pee. I had to go see a doctor about it. I’ve had complications ever since. Ended up my urethra got a stricture that caused peeing and cumming to hurt. Had surgery this week to widen the urethra. Recovering now…it hurts to get hard. And the whole time all I can think is “pleas universe…I just want to be hung”.
Being a size queen doesn’t help. I hook up and date hung guys in order to satisfy my constant craving to tour a big dick. There’s just something about the thickness and length that’s hypnotizing. 7 inches bone pressed by 5 inch girth is enough to do it for me. But I just find it so sad that I don’t have a dick that size attached to me that I can touch when I want and please lovers with. I have to meet someone to have that experience. And sometimes…I even meet hung guys basically just to use them for their dick. In these cases I’m transparent about this basically asking if they’re ok being fetishsized lol which some are uncomfortable with but most seem to love it. I tell them I just need to play with a big one since I don’t have one and they’re happy to oblige. Sometimes I pretend I’m them as I worship them. Of course occasionally I’m attracted to a guy who I actually like him as a person overall as well as the penis and that’s a perfect combo, but that doesn’t always happen.
But playing with big dicks just reminds me of the body I’ll never and makes me feel resentment and that’s not fair. I also think weird things like “Hung guys should share their dicks with less fortunate men since they won the lottery and get to play with their winnings and get validation from society that they’re size is hot while the rest of us just have to deal with being screwed over in the process”. It’s a vicious cycle.
I ramble. Just getting this out there. I’m leaning into being a bottom since I don’t have a dick that’s worthy of praise and fucking someone dominant top style per my standards. But I just thinking while I’m being pounded by big dicks, I wish we could trade cocks so I can top for a change sometimes and get praise
I know I sound selfish. So many have it worse. But I can’t deny my feelings.
Oh and I do wanna get the Phallofill procedure to increase girth someday. And I’m thinking about trying sleeves/extensions/prosthetics but I am worried they may just make me feel silly/pathetic. And I worry lovers won’t look at them as being my actual penis…which I know it wouldn’t actually be but to make me feel better I think we’d need to get in the headspace that they actually are my dick.
Rant done. Open to hear various thoughts especially any new ways to get bigger that I may not have heard of in the past year
