Hello everybody, I was referred to this website by a friend and I had a little problem that I might get some advice from this community. Please forgive the kind of long story but I feel most of the details are important. I have this friend who I have known for less than a year. We would spend quite a bit of time together and I was usually the one who initiated hanging out although he would also do the same sometimes. He would send me text messages about how much he missed me and I would do the same. We would send each other messages and tell each other about how much we loved each other especially after I moved away. We would both do the same unprovoked. It was wierd sometimes because when he sent messages like that unprovoked I would always respond in the same way while on a few instances he would not. There were instances that got me to think that he might have wanted to get physical. Some of these include when would drink a little and he one time held his penis and told me that if i were a girl he would **** the **** out of me which moved on to he would **** me anytime...later that night he proceeded to kiss me twice after telling me how great i looked. he told me another night that he was in love with me and he would turn gay for me. one time in my room well actually a couple of times he kept asking to see my penis and told me that he would show me his and when i looked disgusted he started dangling it in his pants. he told me a couple of times too that he wanted to masturbate with me. sometimes with one of his close friends he would touch him in front of me. before i moved away he took me out, bought me lunch and we went to some ordinary restaurant and he ordered an alcoholic drink for no reason then told me that if we play a game and i win he would kiss me. sometimes though when i told him that i missed him he would not say it back but sometimes he would say it repeatedly. After I moved and planned to visit him he ended up spending the night with me and that night he moved to where i was sleeping and when i didn't make a move he went back and then after i offered him something for his cough he offered me a back rub which i declined. The next day he started acting distant and did not want to hang out as much and when i was leaving did not hug me back after i said goodbye. i wanted to give him space and when i tried to ask him about what was wrong he kept saying i was being too sensitive etc... he then canceled our trip and then said some very hurtful things in a couple of our subsequent conversations. He said that basically I was the one who forced him into friendship with me and that I was too needy/clingy and I acted like I was in a relationship with him. He attacked the core of me and justified everything that he said by saying he could not approach me about it. He kept saying that it was a slow process that made it so that he felt like that but it definitely came only a day after we spent that day together. He doesn't seem to be that interested in a lot of women although he has hooked up with a couple before and has spoken to me about it. Confrontation I asked him if he thought that I was into him (so I would not put any pressure on him) and then he went on and on accusing me of being gay and when I asked why if he thought I was gay then he would do the things that he did then he said that he does that with all of his friends and I would not know what that is like because supposedly I do not hang out with guys. He said some crazy things even like "just because you suck a dick doesn't mean you're gay" and said because he is more masculine, he has lisence to say those types of things. I don't think he really made sense... When he tried to apologize it seemed so half-assed and then he got surprised that I thought that he might be gay (perhaps because he is masculine in that he has a deep voice and is well built) and he totally rejected the idea of bisexuality. Is this type of reaction typical? What should I do? I can't figure out why I still love him even though he has taken it this far to disrespect me... I don't know where to go from here and I still love him a lot but he still seems angry at me... I noticed too that he would try to test my knowledge of the past and retell events in his own way which I knew did not happen like that. Keep in mind too that these are things he has done and I've noticed and this is not the only things we talk about too and we have spent a lot of time together.