It was always something. When boys started noticing me at the age of 12, I had breasts. Real breasts that bounced, and made my bathing suit (not a bikini) really uncomfortable, because as I would dive into the water, the sides would meet in the middle. Everybody talked about my breasts behind my back, and I hated it. Come the age of 14, I started gaining weight. Hips, more fat on legs, and of course more on my breasts. Oh joy. I started seeing myself as fat, and it was really embarassing. Mind you, I still had boys interested in me, I even had a serious boyfriend that used to tell me he loves my body. It was great to hear, but I don't think I ever fully believed him. Now, at the age of 20...I look at myself and I really, really dislike myself. I hate the fat on my legs, the weight around my stomach and my (aforementioned in another thread) lopsided breasts. I want to cry, because with clothes on I look ok. I mean, I don't look fat or too thin, I have a sort of hour glass shape. My butt is firm. But I'm not proud of any of my features, and I really think for a WOMAN it is important to be. A woman has to love herself! Now I am starting to have serious feelings for somebody, and I want to be intimate with him. However at night as I lay in bed, all I can imagine is him holding me while I'm wearing a nightie, because I just can't imagine showing him my body. Aaaand, to add on to all that, I know that insecurity is a big turn off.