My percentage breakdown is based on my most current honest assessment.
It would not necessarily have been the same a few years ago, nor can I guarantee that it will be the same a few years from now.
Don't get me wrong, it really pisses me off that I can't seem, even in my deepest consciousness to come up with a reliably honest percentage split, as it were.
OK, here's the deal: I have lived my entire life as straight. From the start of college onward, I always had a steady and/or live-in girlfriend. At least one of these was a woman well endowed in every way, making me the envy of my male peers. I goddamn loved all of that. I never, ever, had any trouble 'getting it up,' and in fact was labeled by at least one girlfriend as too 'persistently horny' for her to deal with.
Skip forward several years and I'm getting married to my latest in a long string of "serial monogamous" relationships. With one prominent and very painful exception, I never cheated on one woman with another.
But through it all, I always found myself in 'adult' bookstores lingering over pix of men with men. During this period, I sort of thought this was funny, almost like I had an 'overflowing' sexual appetite that was grabbing onto whatever came into view.
I am at a place now where I acknowledge that I have both of these "futures" within me, but really little earthly idea which one I will choose.
I expect I can keep up the game of two-tracking my sex life for another decade or so, but at some point, either my physical attractiveness will fail me, or my concience will catch up with me.
How I will reconcile this, I truly do not know.