I was 45, in the final year of a long marriage that was falling apart. I was involuntarily celibate and quite frustrated. My mind began to wander and the idea of finding another guy similarly situated and secretly getting together and sucking each other off began to appeal to me -two guys giving each other freely that which they no longer could get anywhere else.
Long story short, I accepted the fact that exchanging oral with another guy turned me on and, secondly, I realized that I would never experience that unless I took a chance and made it happen. I placed an ad on CL that was totally honest. I explained that I had no experience and was looking for another married guy who could relate to my situation and could give me the opportunity to explore oral sex with him. Nobody knew or suspected that I had this secret urge and it was some trepidation when I pressed "send" and transmitted out to the world that I was looking for someone who would let me suck his dick.
I was lucky and after weeding through the many responses which were clearly not in line with what I was looking for, I happened to get a response that almost seemed to perfect to believe was real. However, after we exchanged a few emails, I felt comfortable enough to set up a meeting the following Saturday when his wife would be away. When the time came for me to go to his house and I found myself walking up some guy's front steps toward his front door, I knew that I was about to have a life changing moment. I knocked and heard footsteps approaching on the other side of the door. I heard the sound of the door being unlocked and in another second or two the door would open and for the first time ever, another person would see me as someone who came to his house hoping to suck his dick.
The door opened and I was pleasantly surprised. He was tall and had a swimmer's build. I could instantly tell that he was a nice guy and was relieved that I hadn't gotten myself into a dangerous situation. He invited me into his kitchen where we chatted for a bit. It was nice to openly discuss a subject I couldn't discuss with anyone else. Finally he asked if I was ready to do anything then. I firmly replied that I was. He lead me into a room I would call a den. He immediately pulled off his shirt and was about to unfasten his pants. I stopped him and said that I had pictured how I wanted my first time to begin - I wanted to get on my knees, open up the guy's pants and pull them done and then feel his contours under the fabric of his underwear and nibble his dick as it got hard and then slowly pull his underwear down and take in the big reveal. I would then take hold of another man's dick for the first time and then look up and look at him directly in the eye and say "I want to suck your dick" He agreed
Everything unfolded exactly how I wanted it to happen and exactly as I had pictured it except for one thing - his dick was huge, much bigger than I had anticipated it being. It was beautiful, heavy and thick as I held it in my hand. I said the words I wanted to say and hearing them said in my voice, out loud, for the first time ever made me feel flush. The moment of contact between my tongue and the head of his dick was intoxicating. I was extremely turned on and proceeded to attack. Try as I might, I couldn't help but gag, choke and hurl until I spontaneously came. After a few minutes of recovery time and numerous apologies he said he would suck me. He had me lay on my back and proceeded to gently, expertly and thoroughly showed me how it's done. He clearly knew what he was doing and I, just as clearly, did not.
Soon it was over. I thanked him for allowing me the opportunity and he quipped that I definitely needed it.