So you're straight and you want this DUDE to suck you but you absolutely can't bring yourself to return the favor?? And the reason you're so fixated on your GUY friend sucking you is because you don't know any chicks?? K. Right. First, let me thank you. I read so many posts on this site that are amusing, but brother, this one is absolutely a gut buster. I mean this is quality entertainment. Dude, do the words COME OUT, COME OUT, WHEREVER YOU ARE mean anything to you? You've got a thing for your buddy. Sounds like he might for you too. If you're not capable of admitting that but expect your buddy to, then I agree completely with gymfresh when he said that is really, really cold, and you just need to leave it alone. But if you'll just let your inner homophobia go and approach this truthfully, it could be something good for you both. Continue on your present course with it, and I guarantee you'll lose a friend and someday you'll regret what you did deeply.