I recently broke up with my girlfriend of 2 years and 2 months. We were madly in love, I thought we would stay together until marriage (we planned to get married after i finished college). We had far more "ups" than we did "downs". Sex with her was amazing (I was the first guy to get her to truly orgasm, squirting included). Now looking back it started near our 2 year anniversary, we had less sex than we normally would. She started becoming distant which was not like her at all, and after I came back from a 3 day trip to San Diego for family purposes, she decided to break up. I am absolutely devastated. It's been a week since we've been broken up, each and every day my depression is amplifying. I am getting desperate, i tried talking to her but to no avail, she doesn't return my text messages. I'm tired of being depressed. my last resort to finally be happy is to return to drug-use (MDMA) after being completely sober (absolutely nothing, not even alcohol or cigarettes) for years. I need your guy's help. Please!