I read these forums a lot because of my above average size, but I have never posted in them before. Im hoping that you can help me out because I am not comfortable talking to my friends about this and you all seem like a supportive group. I am a 23 year old bi male and I have lately been feeling a lot of pressure to choose a path in my life as far as a gay or straight lifestyle. I personally believe that human sexuality is a fluid thing based on my experiences, but eventually I think for a long term relationship, I must make a choice. Some background on me is that I am an only child with a very small but supportive family. My parents dont know about my sex life or my gay inclinations, but I dont think that they would be supportive because they have a dream for me of getting married and giving them lots of grandchildren. My parents are everything to me and I have a major inferiority complex, so coming out to them at this point and letting them down seems impossible. I have had several female relationships which I enjoyed as well as one very strong male relationship that I am still in now. The guy that I am with I have known for about 6 years now and even though we are not perfect we love each other a lot. We have separated for periods of time (during which I explored more conventional relationships) but we seemed to end up back together. I am finally graduating college and so is he. He really wants me to move in with him so we can start our life together, but I just dont know if its right for me. My whole life I saw myself with the typical American dream wife and kids etc., but now I dont know what I want. I love this guy, but I want a real family, and I am still very much attracted to women. Just to complicate things further, I have had feelings for other guys in my life who I actually feel would be better for me in the long run than the one Im with now. I do not cheat or sleep around, so at this point I feel like I am trapped. My bf called me tonight and got really upset that I told him I did not want to move in with him, and I told him all this about not being sure of my orientation or what I want in my life. Is this wrong? Am I a bad person for doing this to him? How am I ever going to figure this out? If I leave him, I risk never being able to get him back and that makes me sick to my stomach. How can I ever be ok with telling my family? Sorry this is so long, I just needed to get this out to some people who dont know me. Please offer any advice you can give me. I have been pulling my hair out for too long over this. Thank you.