I hope i am in the right forum here. I am an attractive woman except for having a cup breasts. When i was younger i was more confident because i thought my sex partners liked me but now my husband and i for about 5 years have virtually no attraction. Well what i mean is that although i did feel that he was strongly attractedto me then he cant fake attraction for me now. Clearly he has to force himself to look at me and he never ever reacts to me visually. I am a former model and my body is very skinny i guess i look body wise like Erica Badu- very skinny with somewhat of a butt. I am wondering what to do when i have sex as i feel stupid when i am on top and he never wants to look at me like before or when we have sex he never wants to use mirrors like before or even ever look at me. If i playfully move my eyes and head to be in his vision when he is looking away he gets very angry and makes derisive faces. I am not that old- 39 barely old enuf 4 milf porn. I am losing confidence in my man who will look around and away when i am naked. I feel sexy and beautiful when i am alone, but something has flipped a switch for us as he went from getting excited from seeing me naked for several years then one day wham when i was showing him my body he made a disgusted face and said i should not expect to get sex just from showing him my body. From then on for 5 years he does not look me in the eye and avoids coming in the bedroom with me and looking at me and when we have sex he closes his eyes the whole time and has to force himself to look at me. I can tell and feel his disgust for me as it is such a contrast to what our sex was before. I have tried to speak with him about it but it seems to hurt him so i stopped bringing it up. Why make him hate me more. He constantly says he loves me btw. btw i dont look all that different than my 20s and i weigh less than in my 20s (5'6" 110 lbs currently) redblonde hair green eyes. When i did oral with my former boyfriends they said things like 'YOU CAN KNOCK A MAN DOWN" AND Wow you are the best at oral and similar comments. When i blow my man he doesnt want to watch and he never EVER initiates any type of sex. i feel like he doesnt want me and i would rather masturbate than take the humiliation of his low interest. He says he never masturbates even tho we went a year without sex recently and all because i refused to initiate sex so he never initiated sex either. Is there a way for a flat girl in a big booby sex world can find sex techniques that makes him want me? i am confident except when with him. He says he wants never to leave when i tell him it is ok to leave if he feels bad staying with me. i am not some insecure psycho that is creating this by making him resent me with complaining, This is simply about his sudden and persistant lack of attraction after a history with me earlier of sustained and strong attraction.