I have always considered myself heterosexual, as I really, really love women......a lot! However, I have fantasized, and to a degree sought out, finding a guy with a large cock to give oral sex to. I don't want to do anal sex, and I don't even want him to touch me. My woman tells me I have "penis envy", as I have a pretty small dick and wish it was bigger. Is this a strange feeling/fantasy, or what would you call it?