i will add my two cents also. Never sucked a cock, but given my share of hand jobs at the glory hole. I'm not attracted to men...not in the least. Just enjoy playing with cocks... The whole self image thing is there too, of course. I identify as a straight guy, which I feel I am. Every once in a while though, I get the urge to stroke a cock other than my own--but I don't want to engage with, or see other dudes face. That would kill the mood for me. I do not have a desire to go further (ie, sucking, kissing,etc).
Also, I do not let other men touch me either. I don't let them stroke or suck me. (had a guy do it once, just not my thing)
Well said, I'm in the same boat. I'll give or receive a handjob once or twice per year. I still prefer women by a long shot, but give in to the "cock play" urge now and then. Maybe the Taboo thing has something to deal with my urges?
My first time was camping with a buddy. Woke up in the middle of the night and he had my cock in his hand. After getting horned up from that, I reached over and played with his cock too. That's all that happened that night.
Fast forward to the next camp out a month or so later. Woke up again with his hand on my cock. This time he was jacking me off and I blew a load and it felt great. He was the first person to get me off. Felt I should return the favor and it did not take long, he was a fast cummer. Almost to the point of being a premature ejaculator! Anyway, my hand never got tired with him.
We did it one more time maybe a year later. I got a hold of one of those dirty story books. We sat beside each other and I read one of those stories to him. We were both rock hard by then. Pretty soon I felt his hand rubbing my cock, and I did not object. Then both of our pants got dropped and we played around. By this time, I had learned that lubed handjobs felt better. I grabbed a bottle of hand lotion and shared my secret with him. Again, he was a fast cummer. Then he jacked me off with lube.
It was never spoken of afterwards either time. I got married and he moved to Texas. We are still friends on Facebook. Last time we met was maybe 5 years ago, he is still a great guy. In my mind I wanted to ask if he still likes cock play, but I kept my lips zipped!
Over the years, I have jacked many a load remembering our experiences together!