I've think I've become totally jaded with regard to physical beauty. As the years go on, I find myself only attracted to men that are perfect physical specimens. Luckily my partner has amazing genetics and also goes to the gym every day. He's the kind of guy that makes heads turn. And he ain't lacking in the meat department either. That's my other fault. I only go for guys with big dicks. Being in a relationship it's not an issue any more. But I just got to thinking how lame it is that I had such an obsession with physical appearance and dick size. When I was dating I wouldn't even consider the guy unless I deemed him "perfect". When I watch porn, if the guys don't have perfect bodies and big dicks I won't even look at it. So here's my problem. I'm now in my mid 40's and starting to struggle a bit with my own physical appearance. I've put on a few pounds (I'm 6'2" 200 lbs.) and now when I look in the mirror, I disgust myself. I am working on it. I'm at the gym 5 days a week and do eat well. It's just that it's harder as the years go on. And it's now affecting my sexuality because I'm having a hard time feeling sexual when I look at my body in disgust. My partner has no problem with my appearance. He finds me sexy and loves me very much. But for some reason, that's not enough for me. I'm sure I'll work it all out eventually. Gotta learn to love myself and my body for what it is. So here's the question. How hard are you on yourself? To what standard do you hold yourself with respect to your physical appearance. For those of you out there that have a few extra pounds on your body; how do you feel sexy when your stomach jiggles? I hope this doesn't come off offensive. That's not my intent.