Here's an update for you guys:
Since that time, we've slept some nights in the same bed and cuddled/spooned (both in our only our underwear). Just recent;y, one of these nights, I made a move and slowly put my hand down on his penis and fondled him a bit. He responded by rolling over the other way. I then rolled the opposite way and went to bed. Soon later, I awoke to find him spooning with me. I DON'T UNDERSTAND. He has me so confused.
The next day we talked about what happened. I basically let out ever emotion I had been feeling over the past months. I even started to cry (against my will - it just happened). I told him that I had developed feeling for him and I didn't know what to do. That I was scared because I'd never felt feeling towards a guy before.
He said once again that he wishes he was bi but just isn't. That the thought of another guy touching his dick grosses him out. How does this make any sense? He's not afraid to kiss me, cuddle, spoon, or sleep in the same bed. I'm convinced that he would enjoy it if we would just try.
I was right about one thing, though. We are on a level of friendship that the whole scenario doesn't matter. He says this won't effect our friendship in any way and that he is here for me for anything, whenever I need him. Hopefully over the next year he will be more open to experimentation since we will be living together and be together 24/7.
I don't know what to do. I think about him every day. I think I'm feeling love for the first time. What do I do?